Beyond the Midnight Sun (Midnight Series #1)

Chapter 40

Chapter 40
Wedding

Love is flawed. Love isn't perfect in so many ways. Love doesn't always have rainbows and butterflies. It is all about choices.

Kung saya ang pinadama sa'yo ng pagmamahal, mas pipiliin mong doon na lamang permanente. Kung sobrang sakit at lungkot naman ang idinulot sa'yo nito, ikaw mismo ang magdedesisyon kung susugal ka sa pag-ibig na inasam mo o pipiliin mong bumitiw na lang.

Love is all about decisions.

Walang tama o mali sa desisyon kung pinag-isipan nang husto. Decisions are undefinable in some aspects whether it could be right or it could be wrong. Posibleng walang tama o mali sa desisyon sa paraan ng pagtahak sa landas ng pagmamahal.

One firm decision would always dictate how strong our love for someone. It would test how broad and wise our commitment in a particular relationship. Our own choices in every step that we took might teach us how to properly live our life with our own pace. And those eventually will led us to the right path or to the wrong path.

Love is nothing without choices and decisions.

Sa iilang sandali ay nagpigil ako ng hininga nang nanuot ang mga alaala...

My chest hammered painfully.

Our dead memories would always abide within me—even if it pained me too much and it made me helpless, I couldn't seem to forget our memories day by day. It created an eternal place to my heart. It completely dwelled in me forever.

At alam kong kahit saan mang sulok ako dalhin ng lugar, kahit saan man ako mapadpad ng hangin; hindi ko lubusang makakalimutan na minsan akong nagmahal. Na minsan kong nadama ang saya. Na minsan kong naramdaman ang mga makukulay na paru-paro at bahaghari. Na minsan akong na-in love sa isang lalaking hindi ko inasahan.

Na minsan akong natutong magmahal.

It was a nostalgic feeling to always recall our memories.

And I know... it would always remain alive within me despite how much pain it afflicted me. The concept of our love seemed to be faded and untold... but the time of it won't still change anything. It would still remain constant. Our love would still remain alive. And I still live with it despite the tragedy it caused me.

Kahit na tuluyan akong nalugmok at bumitiw sa pinanghahawakan, alam kong siya parin ang pipiliin ko. Alam kong siya lang ang mamahalin ko. Alam kong siya lang ang hantungan ko. Tanging si PO1 Al lang ang nagparamdam sa akin nang ganoon... hanggang ngayon. I would always put my decisions at his back. I would always choose him in the end no matter how much I am hurting.

"Oy, besh, nakikinig ka ba?" Napakurap ako nang iwagayway ni Meg ang kanyang palad sa harap kokop.

"Uh... Ano nga ulit 'yon?" I asked absentmindedly.

Ngumuso siya at umismid. Umahon siya mula sa kanyang swivel chair at tumungo sa katabing upuan ni Eliana.

"Ang sabi ko, mag-outing tayo nina Eliana at Mikaella sa Christmas break. Since wala rin naman tayong Christmas party. Planado na rin ang mga foods and everything," ani Meg. "Sumama ka please, para kumpleto tayo. Kasama rin natin sina Marco," dinugtong niya nang may marahang ngiti.

A sudden memory on Christmas that reminds me about something passed through me. Saglit kong kinurap at pilit na winaksi iyon sa isip.

"Uh... okay, Meg." I nodded gently and smiled a bit.

"Talaga, besh!?" Meg sounds a bit elated.

Marahan lang akong tumango kasama ang tipid na ngiti.

Pumalakpak si Meg at tuwang-tuwa na niyakap na ako. Ngumiti si Eliana at lumapit na rin sa akin. I tried to plaster a smile casually.