His Sweet Little Secret

Chapter 9

RATED PG

"Can I kiss you?"

Words came out of my mouth. Hindi ko na inintay pang sumagot siya dahil natatakot akong hindi siya pumayag so I grab his shirt and kissed him. He's not responding. Titigil na sana ako but when I was about to stop, he kissed me back, hold my waist firmly and pull me closer to him. I could feel his cock hardening. So I had this effect on him huh. I drew a smile and closed my eyes to savor the moment. He has this luscious lips I would always be wanting to kiss. Tumaas ang kanyang kamay sa aking batok  as he deepen our kiss. It feels so hot. I can feel my body burning in so much desire. I was enjoying and thinking it would last a little longer when I felt that strange feeling in my stomach. I pushed him ligthly and he looked at me with a creased forehead. I rushed to the comfort room and there I let everything out of my stomach. Panirang suka naman to.

Naramdaman ko na hinahaplos niya ang likod ko which gave me a comfortable feeling. After vomiting, I felt weak and drained. I washed my face and walked towards the door of my room.

My dizziness worsened after puking. Thanks to Dale, he helped me get to my room. Dahil hindi ko na kaya, nahiga na ako agad sa kama at hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog na ako without even changing my clothes.

Nagising ako na sobrang sakit ng ulo ko. I can smell Dale's scent. Maybe it was just one of my illusions. I was about to get up when I felt an arm on my waist. I can't stand because he was holding me tightly.

Dahan-dahan akong lumingon para makita kung sino ang katabi ko. As I saw his face I was thinking how did we end up here, lying on the bed when all I remember was we were drinking. How the hell did I get home?

Tinampal-tampal ko ang ulo ko, trying to find out what happened last night pero lalo lamang nadagdagan ang sakit ng ulo ko. Kaya sa halip na mag-isip ay tinitigan ko na lang ang kanyang gwapong mukha. His long lashes and pointed nose. Those lips I always want to kiss. lips… kiss… oh my god those lips, those luscious lips I think I remembered kissing. Memories and scenes flashed on my mind. I kissed him, no I asked him if I could kiss him. Oh no! This is not good. How the heck will I face him knowing I did something and probably tell him some… …thing … … no no no, i already told him. Seriously, what will I do now? We just kissed diba, nothing happened more than that? Gosh I want something to happen but not when I'm on my drunk state! I want to make it when I'm sober. 

"Hey, you alright?" napasinghap ako nang bigla syang magtanong. I held my head and shook it. Marahil ay nagising siya nang tumayo ako.

"Hangover, ugh," I stood up immediately.

"K-kanina ka pa gising," nauutal kong tanong sa kaniya.

"Enough to see how you hit your forehead," cool na sabi niya sabay kibit-balikat at saka bumangon na din.

"Oh and I forgot to tell you, I borrowed a shirt. Nasukahan MO kasi," namimilog ang mga mata kong napatingin sa kaniya.

"Oh I'm sorry. My fault napadami inom ko kagabi," nakatungong sabi ko habang pinupuyod ang buhok na hanggang balikat.

I went to the bathroom, brush my teeth and wash my face.

"I have a spare toothbrush in the bathroom, you can use it. I'll just prepare breakfast," nagmamadaling sabi ko na hindi makatingin sa kaniya dahil sa hiya.

Hindi ko na inintay na sumagot siya at nagpunta na agad sa kitchen. I just cook fried rice, ham and egg. My head is still not in a good condition so simple agahan will do.

"Breakfast is ready," agad naman siyang dumulog sa mesa at nagsimulang kumain. Ako naman ay nagtimpla ng kape para mabawasan ang sakit ng ulo ko. I dont feel like eating.

"Why don't you eat," tanong niya sa akin habang kumakain.

"I prefer coffee this time," medyo pabulong kong sabi iniisip kong paanong sisimulan ang nangyare kagabi.

"Ah yung nangyare kagabi, I… j-ju-," panimula ko pero agad din niyang pinutol. What he said confused me.

"What happened last night was a mistake. I have a girlfriend and you are drunk. No one should know about this. It will not happen again," tiim-bagang niyang sabi at muling sumubo ng pagkain. I can't see his emotion when he said those. I know pain is visible in my eyes. I swallow hard to stop myself from shedding a tear.

"Yeah. Right. It will never happen again. I'm sorry. Please excuse me," I said trying hard not to stutter. I walked straight to my room, lock the door, lie down and cried there. I felt a pang of pain when he said it was a mistake. A mistake. Really? A mistake that he responded and enjoyed. Wow. I was totally f*cked up. I should have known.

Akala ko okay lang kami, I woke up with him, lying on my bed with his arms on my waist, and a feeling that he doesn't want to let me go by the way he holds me. But I was wrong, I just assume, because that is what I want to happen.

It was painful, pero anong magagawa ko? I like him so much. I just let myself cry, I know there is more to happen that will hurt me. I need to be stronger. I should be dahil simula pa lang alam ko nang mangyayari ito, hindi ko lang napaghandaan dahil sa hindi ko din inaasahan na may karelasyon siya.

I don't know what time is it nang nagising ako. Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog na ako sa pag-iyak. Lumabas ako ng kwarto at hinanap si Dale, pero wala na siya. Siguro ay umuwi na. Nanlulumo naman akong napaupo sa sofa dahil sa pag-alis niya.

Bakit nga ba ako umaasang nandito pa din siya. Malamang aalis na yun. Sino ba naman ako? Just his PA and cook.

Nawalan na ako ng ganang kumain kaya bumalik na ako sa kwarto at muling humiga para matulog ulit. Gabi na din naman.

I was to sleep nang may tumawag sa akin. What is wrong with this people? Lagi na lang tumatawag. Kung kailan matutulog na yung tao. I answered the phone with my sleepy voice, but awakened when I heard what he said on the other line.

"Kuya I can't go back now," nagsusumamong sabi ko sa kaniya nang sabihin niyang kailangan ko ng bumalik.

"Please let me stay for at least a month. I promise you, I will go home after this." may pagmamakaawa kong sabi sa kaniya.

"I know. I know. Just please let me. This will be the last kuya," I said firmly then end the call.

Goodluck for tommorow self. Bulong ko sa sarili ko at tinuloy na ang naudlot na pagtulog.

Tommorow is another day but a better one.

☆abby☆