Jason: The Origin (Book 1)

Traumatizing Dreams

I fell asleep holding Kara. I was at peace, at least until I started dreaming. It was the same one I had been having the last few nights. I was back at the warehouse where we fought Zoom. I kissed Kara again after I defeated Zoom. The explosion happened, etc. It was a week later, I was at her funeral, they were talking and Kara suddenly burst out of the coffin, she looked like a zombie. She ran at me and fought me. I kept blocking, not hitting. "It's your fault I'm dead" She said, eventually Kara hits me in the chest with her heat vision. "And now the man responsible for the death of Kara Zor-El dies" She said and I died.

Kara Pov

    I was woken up by Jason. He was sleeping on his back. "No, I'm sorry, Im sorry, please" He said and then he gasped, like he was hurt. "I'm sorry" He said and woke up, clutching his chest. He was sweaty, still gasping for air. He got up and walked out, not noticing me. I went out after him and found him looking at the picture of me and him on Eliza's roof. He was crying silently. "Jason" I said, trying not to startle him. He looked over at me, he started walking backwards away from me. "No, don't, im sorry, please" He said, clutching his chest and breathing in pain. I didn't know what was wrong with him.

    He hit the wall and sat down, he grabbed his head with his other hand. "No, no, not again" He said. "Don't hurt me" He finished. "Jason, it's me, Kara, I'm not gonna hurt you," I said, getting on my knees across from him. "Why wouldn't you" Jason asked. "Because, it's me, really me, I came back last night, remember" I said. His breathing started to slow down.

"Kara?"
"Yeah its me"
"No, it can't be your dead"
"I'm not, I just got sent away but I'm back now."
"That's not possible"

    His breathing started to speed up again, becoming more and more labored.

"Calm down, its Kara, your Kara"
"Tell me something only she would know"
"Remember when you were talking to me about your mom, you said that after she died you tried to come up with a plan to sneak in and see your dad, help him escape. You never told anyone cause you didn't want to get in trouble. But then you talked to your dad and he said not to"
"Kara, is that you"
"Yeah, it's really me"

    Jason sighed and leaned back in relief, I moved and sat next to him.

"You wanna tell me what happened while I was away."
"Everything?"
"Everything"
"I uh, I blamed myself, I didn't know why only you died and not me, I wished I died not you. I went back to the DEO and pushed everyone away cause everyone I know dies. Winn made me something to get me drunk, I told Eliza, And then I got angry, I was yelling at everyone. I didn't know how they could just act like everything was okay. They all said they have lost something, but they all had someone left, I didn't. After that I just hung out here, watching those cheesy rom-coms you like. Then you came back and I had my recurring nightmare again. I was at your funeral, still blaming myself, and then you came out of the coffin, you were like a zombie. You attacked and killed me, your heat vision hit my chest, that's why it hurt. the whole way through I refused to fight you. You told me it was my fault you died and that this was my punishment"
"I'm sorry, I should have been there"
"No, its fine"
"Jason, it's not fine"
"It's not like you had a choice to be there"
"No, I didn't, but It hurts that I caused you this much pain"
"You should just go back to bed, I'm not gonna be able to"

    Jason got up and offered me his hand. I took it and stood up. Jason went to the couch, he sat there and turned on the TV, putting his feet on the coffee table and putting the tv quiet. I sat next to him and leaned my head on his shoulder, intertwining our legs. He watched quietly and I fell asleep with Jason's arm around me.