WITH ME

chapter 19

"are you sure that you can do it by yourself? do you want me to accompany you? You know I'm not busy so its alright if I'll spent my time with you?"

it's a lie because there are ton's of paper's waiting for her signature and pile of important meeting that needed for her presence but Lisa didn't want to think but she couldn't help but to worry about Irene's condition and especially for her safety and for the child's well-being.

"No Lisa it's really fine  and even the doctor says that everything is fine! you've already done enough to help me. I'll take care of myself"

Irene wants to be with Lisa right now and even in the next few hours because even during the short time they've been  together, she feels security with the woman, especially right at this very moment where she really needed someone to rely on but she needed to face everything

she felt that Lisa would not leave her.Buts he had to do it alone because first of all Lisa had nothing to do with it. She did not know in herself where she would draw strength after this specially someone is growing inside her, her child.

Yes, her child alone and she has decided not to include Jisoo in her next steps because she doesn't know for herself if she can still forgive, right now she felt tired of everything.

But she feels different every time Lisa is around and she feels its presence even though she would not voice it out but her heart knows that there is something the she feel for the woman.

But Lisa might think she's desperate, and for the last time she doesn't want to squeeze herself for someone who isn't sure if the love she'll offer for it will be returned.

Irene felt the concern in Lisa's eyes and she would lie if she didn't even feel the strange joy in what Lisa was showing but it was the right thing to do, to ignore her feelings for the woman and it would also pass when time comes and there more important things do than to dwell in her strange feelings for Lisa and that is the situation she and Jisoo and her child are in.

"Lisa thank you very much, and don't worry I'll pay you for your expenses here" 

that's all Irene said to hide her emotions because by the time she comes out of the hospital door she doesn't know when they will  meet again and that's why she said it and it's her way to ease the pain of leaving Lisa, this might be their last moment and she don't want to make it hard for herself  .

 "I'm not asking for any compensation Irene, and another thing, all I want is to help you and don't think that I'm doing this to you and  asking for any return, for all the help I've done to you I've done it wholeheartedly and don't you ever forget I'm Lisa Bruschweiler! .....for gods sake Irene "

Lisa's retaliation, even though she didn't admit but she can't deny that right at this moment she felt  annoyed with the woman because she thought that  for everything she did for her she is asking for return or any compensation, it might be proud to say but the money she spent for Irene's hospitalization she can earn it triple the amount in just a minute.

"I know that Lisa, but what I don't like at all is that I'm indebted to someone" 

she is happy hearing from the girl the very reason why she help her, Irene lied because she wanted to hide her own emotions and that's the only reason she could see, and even she felt the same of self -loathing because of the words coming out of her mouth and she knew even Lisa was not happy with what was being heard from her. and she also forget the most important thing! she is a Bruschweiler.

Lisa couldn't answer Irene again because she knew that she had made this decision about being indebted to someone, even herself she didn't want to be indebted to someone because first of all she knew how painful it is to return all the blame for your indebtedness.

Irene couldn't read the emotion Lisa was showing her its only showing res stoic face, if she looked her in the eyes so she decided to step her feet out of the hospital.

a few steps to get out of the hospital and she can see the car waiting for her but most of all she already feel the pain in her heart for the only  reason that maybe this is Lisa and her last meeting  and it hurts more to think that she will be far away from Lisa than the very fact that Jisoo betrayed her.

Irene could already feel the cold metal connecting the glass window and it was barely open because she could already feel the touch of the air on her skin. But when she's about to step out the door someone stopped her...

"Hey! Call me, my phone is always open for you and I will waiting for your call "

Lisa's voice, and hope could be seen in her eyes. Irene just accepted what Lisa gave because she didn't know what to say too, because if before she wanted to ask for her number  but she didn't have enough courage to do that, but right now she is very happy that the girl is the one who had the courage to do that.

"Thank you Lisa, until we meet again" 

then she finally left and got into the car and Lisa just watch the slowly fading black limousine of Irene.

Lisa didn't know what she would feel but one thing was for sure that she was happy with the woman's action because of her sudden tight hug and kiss on her cheeks which made her heart skip a beat for a moment.

Lisa touched her heart because many times she would feel her heart race when ever she was with Irene, her heartbeat became abnormal, an sometimes she would forget how to breath properly when ever Irene touch her accidentally so yesterday she visited a heart specialist to see if there was a problem..

But the doctor said there was no problem.

This time she touched her two cheeks because of the strange heat she was feeling and closed her pair of eyes slightly because she could still feel Irene's soft lips on her cheek and a smile crept on her lips where Irene was the reason and it might be stupid but she would not want to wipe nor wash her face because she might not feel it again.

"Follow the car who  just  leave and let me know everything" 

she ordered her driver and called Miss. Park to pick her up in the hospital to the office.

"Irene what am I feeling right now? what exactly you are doing to me" 

Lisa said to herself while waiting for her secretary's car to come.

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a/n: hello again!!!! sorry for slow update because I'm so busy and one thing that is holding me back to update is that, now I only realize how hard for all the writers to complete there story, but I'm doing my best to make this story of mine complete as soon as possible....

thank you for all the readers!!!