Blood And Tears

Kabanata 10

CELESTE

The world crumbled when we both froze in an unexpected kiss.

In a surprise, his dark eyes grew wider, and my hands tightly clutch into his soft hair. I pulled him closer to me, covering him against Shiva's scrutinizing eyes and protecting myself from any possible means of apprehension in the future.

"Tss! Bitch! She got a dick as fast as the breeze." Shiva blurted out.

She turned her back and Hunter came out.

Bigla akong kinabahan ng mahagip ko ang marahan na pag lingon ni Hunter sa direksyon namin, and I never expected that time can take it at the slowest pace. 

Ang bagal ng segundo at halos hindi ako makahinga, dinig ko ang sariling pag pintig ng puso hanggang sa tuluyang mag tama ang mga tingin namin ni Hunter.

His darkened eyes never changed, he's still calm and I can't clearly read his mind, his emotions, and everything about him.

I badly want to see a thread of shock or a bit of jealousy in his lively eyes yet, there's no evidence of any of these.

But what really hit me hard is when he chooses to turn his back as if he sees nothing and came after Shiva.

Bigla along nanlumo at kusang kumawala ang kamay ko sa pagkakasabunot sa lalaki, ora-mismong tumalikod si Hunter ay bumitiw na rin ako sa kung sinong lalaking na halikan ko.

God! What the hell am I thinking? 

I shouldn't be shocked at his reaction.

I shouldn't be surprised how he turned his back to me.

I already expected it, that he will never drew his attention with my little show.

Alam ko naman--- pero masakit pa rin.

And even Hunter found me kissing with someone else is not a key to burn his emotions or makes him mad.

He always holds his feelings inside his heart and he never cares for others

He never and he will never be the man who will buy you his time, unless, your worth is more than his priority--- his goal to take his---

I sighed and breathed deeply.

Napatingin ako sa lalaki at mulagat pa rin ang mga mata niya, napalunok siyang hinawakan ang labi, "Y-You kiss---"

"Sorry," mahina kong bulong at agad akong yumuko.

Umatras at tinalikuran siya, nahihiya ako sa ginawa ko pero wala akong option.

Pero mas wala akong balak at dahilan para bumalik pa sa leisure room kung na saan ay nandun si Shiva at Hunter.

I don't have any strength to play around, to pretend as good as hell in front of them.

Baka imbis na makatulong ay maipahamak ko ang buong misyon namin at ayokong mangyari 'yun.

I am actually a lost soul, and still, can't find my wings to fly--- but Hunter always told me that I can, he build my will yet he is the one who actually breaks my wings.

He is my hope but my sweetest nightmare.

"H-hinalikan mo 'ko?" ulit niya at nanigas ang katawan niya sa kinatatayuan.

Sinubukan ko siyang tingalain pero hindi ko mapigilan ang panghinaan at manlambot ng muling manumbalik sa akin ang naging reaksyon ni Hunter.

"I said, I'm sorry. I-I t-thought y-you ahmmm---Ah! Never mind, just forget about it." palusot ko na lang sa lalaki.