Blood And Tears

Kabanata 18

CELESTE

I breathed deeply and never open my eyes. I'm terrified to see myself where I never used to be.

Shiva asked her makeup artists to do the exact look they did to her, and I am not fond of using makeup and sprays in my hair.

I feel the heaviness of my eyes; my lips are too thick in my feelings, and even my cheeks feel a little bit of deep.

I can't even have a good balance wearing this black stiletto.

"Hey, open your eyes! What the hell are you waiting for, huh!?" Shiva blurted out when I keep my eyes shut.

And she's still waiting for me, "Ano ba Celeste? Ang arte arte ah, ano bang kinatatakot mong makita?"

"Makitang maging mukha akong unggoy katulad mo." diretso kong sagot.

At iyon talaga ang kinatatakot ko, na pag mulat ng mata ko ay bumalik ako sa pagiging unggoy.

Imagine, Shiva asked them to change my look the same way she has.

Sinong hindi matatakot na mula sa pagiging tao ay babalik ka sa pagiging unggoy.

"Y-you bitch! Pasalamat ka kailangan kita." inis niyang inihampas sa'kin ang isang pouch.

"Don't make a single mistake during the party, sumunod ka sa kung anong pinag usapan natin. Naintindihan mo?" asar na paalala ni Shiva at tumango lang ako sa kaniya.

Nanatili pa rin akong nakapikit.

Natatakot talaga ako makita ang itsura ko.

"Bilisan mo mag inarte diyan, kanina pa tayo hinihintay ni Roro sa may lobby." she sneered, and I heard her stiletto stomped on the ground.

I wait until Shiva leaves this room.

I sighed and slowly open my eyes; it slits a little until I saw a shade of myself.

Tuluyan kong iminulat ang mga mata at nakahinga ako ng maluwag na hindi pa naman ako mukhang gorilla na mahilig sa saging.

I'm wearing a white satin long dress with a high slit, and it has a deep cut of deep v-line in front that exposes my round breast; my cleavage is too visible in this dress, and luckily I have those nipple patches. Wearing an ordinary bra wouldn't fit on this kind of dress, and of course, this dress comes into a backless.

Hindi kaya magka-pulmunya ako nito sa sobrang exposed ng likod ko?

I sighed, stared at a vast mirror, and my hair is in a messy bun, yet some strand of my natural wavy hairs all from both sides and emphasize my jawline, my eyes with dark eye shadows highlight my big and round eyes, and I wear a deep and dark red lipstick, indicating my full lips. 

"See? Mukha kang tao." halos mapatalon ako sa gulat ng marinig ko ang boses ni Shiva mula sa likuran.

Mula sa malaking salamin ay kita ko siyang nakatayo malapit sa may pinto, she's wearing the same dress at make-up I had. Pati hairstyle ay parehas na parehas kami ni Shiva, ang pinagkaiba lang ay sadya pa siyang nag pakulot.

"You should thank me dahil sa unang pagkakataon ay na-experience mo man lang ang maging mukhang tao. Hindi yung mukha kang cheap at napag lipasan ng panahon sa old fashion mo."

"It's not old, hindi ka lang marunong maka-appreciate ng fashion."

"Whatever! Your everyday look is so boring. Nakakasawa kang pagmasdan." sabay irap ni Shiva at humakbang siya palapit sakin. Hindi ako nagpatinag sa kaniya at wala naman akong pake sa kung pano ako makita ng iba.