The One Who Tried to Kill me

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Thor informed me a few days later that they had located Loki. My stomach dropped. I still had mixed feelings and didn't know how to present myself. Do I show sympathy to the man who kidnapped me? The one who let me go? I immediately went to Sam, he was a very good listener when he wasn't making smart ass comments. I also talked to Nat and Wanda to get a different point of view. We sat on my bed and chatted, with a bowl of popcorn in between us.
"I know when Bucky sees him he's going to go in protective mode, so I have to worry about my emotions along with his." I said expressing my concern.
"I don't think you'll have to worry about him, he knows this is a lot for you, he will swallow his pride."
Wanda responded
"I hope so, I just don't know what to do."
"Well, act tough, don't show him that he affected you." Nat added
"Y-yeah, I just-"
"What?"
"He let me go. He corrected his wrongs. . ."
They both starred at me waiting for me to speak again.
"I know what he did was wrong! I would never make an excuse for literally stealing someone, but there's a part of me-"
"That wants to forgive him." Wanda finished my sentence
"Yes. But I won't. I can't."
Nat looked me deeply in the eyes
"When Clint found me, when he was sent to kill me, he could have ended it all. I wouldn't be here, I wouldn't be with this family we have. My life could have been a very short story, but he knew that my dark past could be fixed with the right decisions. It's your turn to make that judgment, is there good in him?"
I looked down at my hands unsure what to say. I knew Loki had potential to be a good person. Deep down there was something light. All that wisdom and wit could be used for positive change. But was he willing to do it?
"I- I think so" the words finally spilled from my mouth.
"There it is." Wanda said
I basked in silence for a moment, I needed a plan. I was too tired to come up with one. I would talk to Bucky, maybe he could help me come up with something. Maybe he could look pass his anger and think rationally.
"Well that's enough of the deep stuff," Nat said pulling me back to reality, "tell us about the good stuff."
"The good stuff?" I questioned
"Yes. Your precious "Smiles"'
I rolled my eyes and smiled
"There is nothing to tell" I said
They both looked at me with one eyebrow raised, knowing there was plenty to tell.
"Fine," I spat "but this is not like one of those movie scenes where we break out in song and swoon over Bucky!"
They smiled and conversation began to flow. We chatted for hours, comparing old relationships to new ones. Comparing made it easy to see how lucky I was to have Smiles. I told them about his sweet side. The side of him that would hold me and play with my hair when I'm stressed, the side that learned my favorite songs so that he could sing them with me, the side that complimented me a thousand times a day. I also shared that I secretly loved his protective side. The one who clenched his jaw and closed his fists when he got jealous. The way he puffed out his chest to show off his size. I love that. One thing led to another and we talked about the more intimate details.
"He's dominant, but he always makes sure I'm ok, you know?" I told them
"And the metal arm?" Nat added
"He ugh- puts it to good use. . ." We all laughed
"I'm glad you like it doll." Bucky's voice spoke from behind me causing my eyes to grow big.
I slowly turned to see him leaning in the doorway.
"Oh don't mind me, keep going, I'd love to hear more." He spoke again
I grabbed my pillow and threw it at him causing him to laugh.
"I just came in to tell you I'm going to bed, join me when you ladies are done." He smiles at me
"No need, we were just wrapping things up" Wanda said getting up "you two have a good night."
Nat winked at me on her way out. As the ladies walked out Bucky came closer to me.
"Good use huh?" He said
"Be quiet" I said playfully rolling my eyes
I laid down on my bed
"I thought we were sleeping in my room." He said noticing that my eyes were closing.
"Too tired." I simply stated
"Not a problem."
He grabbed my waist pulling me over his shoulder, I was too exhausted to fight it. I simply let it happen. He gently laid me down on his bed and I fell asleep with his arms around me.
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