side by side~ theo raeken [2] s6a

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Camila's Pov
Skip a week
For the past week I've just been in my room. I've not been ignoring people just sort of blowing them off to do other things. I know how that sounds, bitchy and selfish but I kind of got right back into my old ways of writing everything down in lyrical terms.

It's actually pretty funny if you think about it. Since I have dyslexia I have trouble reading but I can write words down. So if I write down lyrics I won't be able to read them a second later. It's pretty annoying but I guess that's part of it all.

If you asked me how I am right now I'd say I'm fine. I'm in between the lines of just forgetting everything that happened this year and constantly thinking about...him. Everything is just so? Bland I guess.

Anyways back to what I was saying.

I'm in my bed writing in my notebook, which still has my old songs in, when Stiles bursts into the room like a maniac. I quickly slam my notebook shut and Stiles looks at me confused. I try to collect up all the loose sheets of paper on my bed but Stiles quickly grabs some of them.

"Stiles they're mine." I whine.

"What are you? Five?" he sarcastically laughs and starts reading them.

Stiles Pov

The Night We Met
Why am I the only person,
Who's not over the fact you've left,
I've been searching for a trail to follow again,
Take me back to the night we met,

And then I can tell myself,
What the hell I'm supposed to do,
And then I can tell myself,
Not to ride along with you,

I had all and then most of you,
Some and now none of you,
Take me back to the night we met,
I don't know what I'm supposed to do,
Haunted by the ghost of you,
Take me back to the night we met,

When the night was full of terrors,
And my eyes were filled with tears,
When you had not hurt me yet,
Oh, take me back to the night we met,

I had all and then most of you,
Some and now none of you,
Take me back to the night we met,
I don't know what I'm supposed to do,
Haunted by the ghost of you,
Take me back to the night we met,

I look down at Camila before reading one of the other pieces of paper.

Lose you to Love me
You promised the world and I fell for it,
I put you first and you adored it,
Set fires to my forest,
And you let it burn,
Sang off-key in my chorus,
'Cause it wasn't yours,

I saw the signs and I ignored it,
Tears in my eyes, your all distorted,
Set fire to my purpose,
And I let it burn,
I ended up hurting,
When I wasn't yours, yeah,

I'd always go into it blindly,
I needed to lose you to find me,
You being gone, is killing me softly,
I needed to hate you to love me, yeah,

To love, love, yeah,
To love, love, yeah,
To love, yeah,
I needed to lose you to love me, yeah,
To love, love, yeah,
To love, love, yeah,
To love, yeah,
I needed to lose you to love me,

I gave my all and they all know it,
Then you tore me down and now it's showing,
In 4 months, I still miss us,
It's still not easy,
Made me think I deserved it,
I'm still not healing, yeah,

I'd always go into it blindly,
I needed to lose you to find me,
The truth is still killing me softly,
I needed to hate you to love me, yeah,

To love, love, yeah,
To love, love, yeah,
To love, yeah,
I needed to lose you to love me, yeah,
To love, love, yeah,
To love, love, yeah,
To love, yeah,
I needed to lose you to love me, yeah,

You promised the world and I fell for it,
I put you first and you adored it,
Set fires to my forest,
And you let it burn,
Sang off-key in my chorus,

To love, love, yeah,
To love, love, yeah,
To love, yeah,
I needed to hate you to love me, yeah,

To love, love, yeah,
To love, love, yeah,
To love, yeah,
I needed to lose you to love me,

To love, love, yeah,
To love, love, yeah,
To love, yeah,
And now the chapter is closed and done,

To love, love, yeah,
To love, love, yeah,
To love, yeah,
And now it's goodbye, it's goodbye for us,

I turn the pages and read the next one.

Deep End
Someone told me but I won't know,
That I feel half empty, ripped and torn,
They say there'd be plenty other hands to hold,
Now I wish they'd told me long ago,

Ooh, I don't want this to break you,
Ooh, but I've got no one else to talk to,

I don't know if you mean everything to me,
And I wonder, can I give you what you need?,
Don't want to find I've lost it all,
Too scared to have no one to call,
So can we just pretend,
That we're not falling into the deep end?,

I've gone quiet, I don't call,
And nothing's funny anymore,
And I'm still trying to mend and heal,
They didn't see me crying and dry my tears,

Ooh, I don't want this to break you,
Ooh, but I've got no one else to talk to,

I don't know if you mean everything to me,
And I wonder, can I give you what you need?,
Don't want to find I've lost it all,
Too scared to have no one to call,
So can we just pretend,

Ooh, how do I mend?,
Ooh, I didn't choose to depend on you,
It's out of my hands,
Maybe it will work out in the end,

I don't know if you mean everything to me,
And I wonder, can I give you what you need?,
Don't want to find I've lost it all,
Too scared to have no one to call,
So can we just pretend?,

Don't know if you mean everything to me,
And I wonder, can I give you what you need?,
Don't want to find I've lost it all,
Too scared to have no one to call,
So can we just pretend,
That we're not falling into the deep end?,