Monster's Daughter (Legacies Fanfic)

Scared PT.2

Hopes pov

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Darkness blanketed over everything then I heard the music from the party start up slowly. I was standing next to the railing on the stairwell in the lockwood manor. The crowd starts to fill slowly yet suddenly. Then I felt a hand on my wrist "Josie" I say turning around. Its landon.........

I lose my breathe and I feel trapped unable to control my body 

"Hey let me help you" He says grabbing my arm

"GET OFF" I yell but I didn't yell it instead I heard "thank you"

Hope what the hell are you doing run throw your ass down the stairs do something

Instead all I do is watch as he takes me into one of the room

I can't look away I can't stop it I can only sit there as the hazy memories come back

I shudder awake tears stream down my eyes

I just want to lay down and cry or I want to do something ....just anything that could make me feel better but I don't want Josie to wake up so I softly sob into my pillow 

Memories of him flash through my head some are from that night and some are random times I saw him in the hallways or at the grill. 

Then I remembered one of the last memories I had with my dad.........

Landon and I slow dancing at the concert

Tears run down my face my sobs become uncontrollable 

I wish he would have snapped his neck

"Hopey, whats the matter." I didn't realize I woke her up maybe if I'm silent for a moment she will go back to sleep

But instead she sits up to look at my face before she gets a good look I turn my head

She turns on my lamp

"Nothing" I say trying to calm down 

The door slams open I jump into Josie arms terrified this is another dream in which landon tears me away from Josie

"HOW THE MIGHTY HAVE FALLEN" Lizzie slurs

I think about pulling away from Josie, but all I want is her to hold me and make me feel safe

"Lizzie can you please go" She says rubbing my back

"I'M JUST PLAYING"  I instantly recoil not wanting to be touched by anyone but Josie

How stupid am I Lizzie isn't going to hurt me but I .......... just felt this strange bad feeling like she was going to

"LIZZIE STOP IT YOU'RE SCARING HER , MORE" 

Am I this pathetic scared of someone who would never hurt me on purpose.

I cry self-loathing tears

Why does Josie even love me I'm a mess

I miss my mom and dad if they were here I would be okay maybe I wouldn't be so broken

"THE MIGHTY TRIBRID AFRAID OF LITTLE OLD ME" Lizzie chuckles taking a sip from her water bottle of what I assume is vodka

I cry because it's the truth,I'm afraid of Lizzie its stupid even she knows it

"LIZZIE GET OUT NOW OR YOU WON'T HAVE TO WAIT FOR THE MERGE" She yells so loud it startles me

I lift my head up to see Josie face she looks utterly horrified then I look quickly at Lizzie then see both Caroline and Alaric standing there almost as shocked as Lizzie.

"Lizzie go to your room an wait" Alaric growls I shudder at his thundering voice burrying my head into Josies side and the pillow on our bed.

I try to go to my happy place and try not to pay attention

I look up to check if the coast is clear after the voices stop then I see Caroline standing inches away from me

I back into Josie startled

"Hope hey, are you ok"

Ya know the usual I'm pregnant with my rapists baby, I'm slowly remembering and reliving past and present trauma, I'm really scared and I want my mom, and I trashed a school with my friends and now its one of the many cover-ups I'm part of

I nodd 

"Can we talk for a minute then" She says softly

I don't want to leave Josie and I don't want her to leave me 

More tears run down my face like a rain on a car window

I wipe most of my tears with my sleeve then pull most of my hair in front of my face 

I get off the bed slowly try to prove to myself and all of them that I'm okay, that I'm strong

I grab Carolines hand trying to adjust to the light

 Memories of the bar fly through my head

I'm so overwhelmed by these sudden thoughts I grab the door frame to support or ground myself

Josie runs over to help

"Josie I'm fine" I say pushing her away

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I have to write another part I'm exhausted and have a migranie and endless piles of work that won't do itself😭

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