Monster's Daughter (Legacies Fanfic)

Rebekah

TW TRIGGER WARNING, Suicidal Thoughts.

I open my eyes getting the strange sense of deja vu I got when my mom died and it felt like I was laying on concrete road but then I'm suddenly in my room.

Freya stops slouching in her chair, it was like I was reliving the worst day of my life all over again. 

"Hope" She gets up.

"No" I respond wanting to relieve anymore.

"Hope" She sits down on my bed

"No" I gulp in a firmer voice

"Hope" she says in a softer voice.

"Get away" I yell throwing the nearest thing into the wall which happens to be a lamp.

Freya jumps back. 

"Go away if you're just going to die too" I wrap myself in the blankets of the bed.

I hear her leave and another person enter.

"Go Away Marcel" I answered annonyed immediately recongnizing his heavy step.

I hear him exit.

I lay in bed softy crying trying not to draw to much attention.

A couple of people visit as the day rolls on but I pay no attention to any of them. 

The next day rolls in and its the same thing people visit and I pay no attention. Thoughts of turning it off or just dying are more frequent. I weigh the pro's and con's in my head.

Foot steps approach me and I feel a firm hand on my head. It takes me a minute to realize someones head diving me

"Get out of my head" I firmly grab their arm.

I move the cover away from my face and I see an extremely upset Rebekah.

"Why would you do that" I groan sitting up.

She wraps her arms around me tightly and starts to cry.

"I'm sorry Aunt Rebekah" I wrap my arms around her remembering she saw my pleas for death or my want to just turn it off. I wonder what other things she saw in my head, I'll ask her later.

"I  d-didn't know you felt like that." Rebekah holds me tightly she starts to cry.

I rest my head and cry on her shoulder.

"Have you felt like that before" She lifts my cheek.

"Yes" I whisper and continue to cry feeling like I disappointed her.

"When" she asks softly.

"First when I was twelve and I thought everyone just hated me, then a couple of times when I was fourteen but I was dealing with the death of my mother, father, and uncle whose deaths I basically caused, It stopped for a while when I was fifteen because I had a dream of mom and she told me to live and I promised I would, When I was sixteen I stood lake's edge for two hours on my birthday stake to my heart ready to go through with it but I got a call from you wishing me a happy birthday and I walked away from the lake and dropped the stake. Since I've been seventeen its more been about being a reckless hero" I look at the ground head over her shoulder.

"I wish you would have told me" Rebekah swallows hard.

"I do too" I sniffle.

"I can't imagine what you're going through, but I would be a wreak if I lost you" She holds me tight.

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