The Possessed President

8: Acrasia

  

- Harris -

All I remember is that I first came in that place before seeing this unfamiliar town, or it could also be that I first came in this town before that place.

No, I don't know what to think anymore. Everything's enigmatic.

They might think that I'm losing my mind. I lost it long time ago, and hardly I've been trying to cope up with it, which often becomes successful.

I just wanna sleep like this. Ayaw ko ng bumalik sa lugar na 'to. I don't wanna sit here anymore, trying to find out how must it end.

"Sh*t!" napahawak ako sa sariling ulo nang makaramdam ng sobrang pananakit. Tila pinapalipit ito at unti-unting pinipiga. Naipatong ko na rin ang dalawang siko sa lamesa habang nakaupo dahil dito ko na natagpuan ang aking sarili.

Baliw na kung baliw pero kung saan siya huling nagpunta, doon ko matatagpuan ang sarili ko. I didn't know what happened here while I was gone.

You should stop this, you f*cker! Leave my life alone to me!

It might seem insane but someone's invading my body after that incident, after what I did.

Naramdaman ko na lang ang kusa kong pagngiti, "Hi, Mr. President. Alam mo bang nagkakagulo sa pinakamamahal mong unibersidad?" tanong ko sa sarili kaya mas lalong napahigpit ang pagkakahawak ko sa aking ulo.

"Eros," mahina kong saad.

"Right, you should always remember me," saad ko pa.

I'm going crazy again and this life is like living in hell with this demon inside me.

"Leave my life away, Eros. Tigilan mo 'ko!"

"Did you already forget? You lost in our game, so I have the right to invade and use your body whenever I want."

"I will do everything to kill you f*cker, stop bothering me!" galit kong saad. Nababalutan naman ng kadiliman ang buong opisina.

"Kill me? Really?" hindi makapaniwalang tanong niya.

I don't have full control yet over my own body since he's here. And he's right, before, whenever I sit on that seat, he always comes out as he is. But now? Kahit anong pigil kong hindi maupo ay kusa akong napapaupo roon.

"Once you kill me, you'll be needing to kill yourself, Harris," sabay ngiti niya ng masama.

Ako mismo, kinakausap at kinakaaway ang sarili ko.

"What the hell do you want para tantanan muna ako?" maski ang paghinga ko ay lumalalim na rin. It feels like I am in a high delusion whenever I fight with Eros for my body.

Kaya niyang kontrolin ang katawan ko. I have to force him out of my body, pero paano ko gagawin 'yon?

"Nothing, Harris. I just wanna play games with you," kusa akong napatingin sa salamin na nasa gilid ko at sumilay ang masamang ngiti, "You want me to tell you what happened while you were gone?"

He can even guess sometimes what I am thinking dahil nasa katawan ko siya. Whatever he does, I do. Whatever I do, he does. We're actually two and different, but we are one.