𝗠𝘆 𝗦𝗮𝘃𝗶𝗼𝗿⁵ // 𝘑𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘏𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘳

chapter 5

February 12th, 2041

LEXI'S P.O.V.

"Hey guys."
"Heyy, what did we do to have you here with us today?"
"Oh shush yourself."

I just walked in Bryce's office, where Blake and Stiven were.

"I wanted to ask something. Do any of you know if it's possible to locate the email that I got? Like, from where was it sent?"
"I don't even think you can do that."
"I don't know."
"Why do you want to locate an email?"
"Well you don't need to know the reason."

I said making Bryce roll his eyes.
"Jeezz woman, do you want help or not?"
"I do, but I don't wanna get asked too much."
"I don't know though. But what happened, for real?"
"Nothing, really."
"Okay, if you say so."

"You know, one guy keeps asking me about you. He saw you few times and he seems to like you. In a romantic way."

Stiven said, making all of us look at him.

"What guy?"
"His name's Aaron. He is boss in our center in New York."
"I don't know who's that. Nor I am interested into having anyone."
"Why don't you try?"
"Yeah, you are young. Jaden will be our brother for life, but I am hundred percent sure he wouldn't want you to be stuck like a widow for the rest of your life."
"Plus it might help you get over him at least a little. You deserve to be happy."
"No. I'm not gonna use someone for my benefit. And it's been only 5 years. I still have that scene of them getting out the body, every single day playing on repeat. So no. Don't press me onto doing stuff."
"We aren't trying to press you. But we just want you to know that we will support you the day you decide you are ready for someone new."
"Okay."

I talked with them for a bit of time.

Walking back out of the building, I passed Jaden's office.

Maybe five years was enough. Maybe it's time to come in.

Maybe there is any signs how I could find out who sent me that video.

I took a key that was constantly with other ones on the key ring, and unlocked the doors.

Immediately, my eyes started filling with tears.

Fuck.

I have so many memories with this fucking office.

And this is the first time walking in this office that I have to unlock the doors or that I didn't have his face at the desk.

I just miss my husband.

And if he is still alive I want him fucking back.

Maybe he left us?

Maybe he left because he was sick of me?

But he literally told me five times every single day that he loves me.

I know Jaden, he wouldn't leave willingly.

But who the fuck took him away from us?

I closed the doors, pressing my back against them and sliding down on the floor.

He was my fucking world.

The things we went through in our 16 years together are just- I will never be able to describe it.

It's like hell living without him.

All the flashback running through my head.

*flashback*
"You're just so beautiful."
"Noo, stoppp doing that."
"What?"
"Saying all that cute stuff with that cute voice."
"Why? Does that make you blush?"

He pulled my head up a little on his chest by my chin and looked my face.

"Aww, my little tomato."

I buried my head in his neck, while his fingers ran up and down my bare back.

"I love it when I make you blush."
*end of flashback*

He would always call me 'my little tomato' and even though it's sounds like some cheesy shit, I found it so cute every time.

*flashback*
I walked in the house to see Jaden and Michael dancing in the living room; while Michael was constantly giggling making Jaden laugh with him.
"Mommy!"
Michael squealed once he noticed me; pointing his little finger at me.
Jaden turned around and looked at me with a big smile on his face.
"Come dance with us mama."
Jaden grabbed my hand and spun me around before pulling me closer to him to dance.
*end of flashback*

*flashback*
"Yo Jaden, we are going to Tokyo next Monday-"
"Nahh, keep me out of it."
"What do you mean to keep you out of it? It's something important for our company."
"I don't care, I'm not gonna miss the appointment, especially the one where my amazing wife and mother of my children finds out what genders are the babies."
Big smirk formed on my face when he said it. He cares so much, he never missed an appointment for Michael, nor for the twins so far.
"Okay then, I guess we'll ruing the whole thing."
"Fuck it up, you're dead. I don't care that you're like a brother to me. You can do one shit without me."
Jaden gritted at Josh, before Josh left the room.
"Give me your hands."
Soon, two big hands placed in my over the desk.
I rubbed the back of his hands with my thumb, but then checked his palms. He does that when he's mad.
"Okay, calm down babe."
I got up at walked to the other side of the table; sitting on his lap with my legs on the left side of him.
"I don't fucking care about any drugs. I have mine."
"You have yours?"
I asked confused, my left hand wrapped around the back of his neck and my right hand on his chest.
"Yeah. You're my drug."
He pressed his forehead on mine; whispering those words on my lips.
I leaned a inch forward, enough to smash my lips on his.
*end of flashback*

Just as I fucking started understanding the fact that he is gone forever someone sends me that video.

Fuck this shit, I'm gonna find him. At any costs.

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