𝗠𝘆 𝗦𝗮𝘃𝗶𝗼𝗿⁵ // 𝘑𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘏𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘳

chapter 24

March 30th, 2041

LEXI'S P.O.V.

"So do you wanna tell me about what happened while you were there?"
"Uh, I don't know."
"Come on love. I'm here to listen to you. You don't ever need to be ashamed of anything in front of me."
"Well, uh, does it count as she sexually abused me? I mean-"
"If you didn't want it and didn't give consent it does. Doesn't matter if you are a man or not."
"Well, then, that happened. Almost every day."
"I'm so sorry baby. I'm so sorry I didn't find you earlier."
"I know. It's not your fault. I didn't even think you'd ever find me."
"Do you wanna tell me what exactly she did?"
"I don't know. It's really embarrassing."
"I know you feel that way. But you shouldn't. Remember what happened in Bora Bora. That one time in Chicago."
"I know, but i- it's just really embarrassing to tell you- I-I mean you are my wife and I don't want you to look differently at me."
"I never would. But it's okay, you don't need to tell me if you're that much embarrassed. I'll not press you."
"Okay."I kissed his head as he tightened his grip on me.

We laid in silence while I played with his hair. God, I feel so bad for him. Who knows what she did if he doesn't want to tell me.

"She used-" He mumbled, but then stopped himself with a sob.
"What baby? What did she use?"
"A- uh, d- di-"

I sighed, before pulling him closer to me and hugging him really tight.

"I didn't want that at all." He sobbed as he clung onto my body and wouldn't let go.

"That shit hurt so bad. She didn't even use a lube or anything. Fuck, I sound so stupid."
"No you don't. It's not stupid at all. She sexually abused and assaulted you, it's not stupid."
"The thought of it makes me not want to have sex ever again." He cried, but couldn't suppress a little laugh that left his mouth.

"Like, I'm sorry for having sex with you and taking your V. I don't know how you handle it."

I chuckled as I kissed his head. I know he is trying to cover up his pain with those little laughs, because he is embarrassed.

"You can laugh. If you laugh it makes me feel better and not so embarrassed. You can joke about it."
"Joking to cope, huh?"
"Of course." I shook my head as I caressed his cheek.

"Did it really hurt you that bad that you don't want to have sex again?"
"Yes. Plus that shit was even smaller than my. I don't know how you can like that."
"Well. Did it happen just once or more times?"
"More than once."

I pressed my lips together. My heart hurts for him. Even though he is trying to joke, I know it's not funny to him.

"But you're not gonna tell that to anyone."
"Of course I'm not going to."
"I don't want anyone to know anything. I trust you with my life so I told you. But I'm not willing to share it with anyone else but you."
"I know."
"God, I missed you so much. I missed having a best friend."
"You can't even imagine how much I missed you. And I can't wait to go back to kids and to be all together again."
"I know. You can't even imagine how many times I dreamed, or daydreamed, about coming back home to all of you. Even though we won't be able to be totally alone, because I bet everyone will be in our house when we come back."
"I know, but everyone missed you so much, so you can't blame them."
"I know."

We laid for half of hour or even more in silence, just appreciating the fact that we are back together.

"Baby, you haven't told me. When are we exactly going back home?"
"My plan is on 2nd. That way you have enough time to heal at least a little from everything, but also it's like the day you 'died'. It was just right in my head."
"Oh, so it's like I died and then came back from death five years later?"
"Yeah. And 2nd April is a depressing day, or at least it was for last five years. So it's like, replacing a bad memory connected with that date with a good one."
"Yeah. But God no, that means three more days."
"I know. But they'll pass quickly, trust me."

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My heart hurts, pls even though it's kinda funny at the same time bc I fucking made it up T.T