𝗠𝘆 𝗦𝗮𝘃𝗶𝗼𝗿⁵ // 𝘑𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘏𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘳

chapter 49

May 1st, 2041

JADEN'S P.O.V.

I was currently alone in kitchen, drinking water while being zoned out. Thoughts and imaginations about how Michael would act after I tell him everything about one of the most traumatic events from my childhood wouldn't leave me since last night. I just have a gut feeling like I'm gonna lose him, and then he's gonna tell that to Josie and Mason and three of them would hate me for the rest of the life.

"Dad?"
"Oh, hey." I looked up to see Michael slowly entering the kitchen.

"Can we, uh, you know?" He stuttered out, not knowing what are the right words for him to use.

"I don't think it's- I don't think we should talk here. Let's go buy breakfast so momma doesn't need to worry about it and meanwhile I'll explain everything."
"Okay. But we gotta leave her a note so she knows where we are."
"Yeah, I know. I'll text her."

Michael nodded his head, making his way to the garage. I followed him while typing in a message for Lexi.

"A-a. I'm driving." I said, making him sigh as he got out of the driver's seat and moved to passenger's.

I drove out the garage, stopping at the gates to talk to our guards.

"Don't let Joshua in if he comes. Okay? Only let twins, Addison's or Blake's. Alright?"
"Okay sir."

I drove off, sighing as I looked out of my window. Where do I fucking start?

I turned my head to Michael, and he was already staring at me, waiting for me to start talking.

"It's- It's very complicated. And I promise I'm gonna explain it, I just- I just need to figure out from where to start, because it's not easy at all." He nodded his head, remaining silent, but not moving his eyes off of me.

"My father was abusive. When I say abusive, I think it was even worse than Josh. He used to tie us up with ropes or chains, put us in the basement for days, starve us. I always had to have straight A's, just like my sisters. One day, when I wasn't home, he tried to touch Addison. My mom tried to protect her, but he was stronger than her. He pushed her on the ground and beat her up so she wouldn't get off the floor. Josie had broken arm, but she was anyway in the shower while that started happening. He got back to Addison, and that's when Josie came out of bathroom. She jumped up on him and tried to fight him. But then, he pushed her down the stairs, as all of that was happening upstairs in the house. And she rolled down, breaking probably her neck and what all, causing her to die that same moment as her blood was all over the floor. My mom tried to fight him- uh, but he managed to get what he wanted from Addison. That's when I came back home. I was 'out with friends' but I was actually going to meet up this guy around mom's age that I knew had a gun to sell me. So, he didn't see me walking in the house, nor heard me. And I sneaked behind his back up the stairs and, you know, did what I had to. I had to go over my sister's dead body, and manage not to make any sounds while I was crying. The gun the guy gave me had silencer. Because the guy was good and listened to me when I explained him why I needed a gun. Later, you know, guy got rid of father's body and helped us." I would stop every now and then to take a break as I tried not to make myself have an flashback episode.

It was too hard for me to talk about it, especially to my son, so I was indeed crying. I just hate remembering that fucking day and it's so painful to do it.

"I-" Michael started as few tears left his eyes and rolled down his face, "I'm sorry. That's- That's just awful."
"And I felt like I'm the only way- only person that can save my sisters and mom. But I didn't know I'd be so late to save three of them, but only two. And you can think whatever you want about me, and you might have a different picture of me now in your head, but I'm glad I killed him. If I didn't, John and momma would never meet, and I'd never see my mom so happy. Bryce and Addison would never meet, because Addison and I would have no connection to our company. I would never meet your mom and you and your siblings would never exist. And also my niece and nephew. At the same time, who knows if mom, Addison or I would even be alive at this very moment. So I have no regrets on killing him, no matter how bad it sounds. Because even if I ever managed to forgive him for what he did to me, I'd never forgive him for what he did to my mom and sisters. It's just something I'll never get over. And there's so many things that happened beside that day, but it's better if you don't know everything." I said as I gripped on the steering wheel, while tears were going down my face as I looked at Michael.

He was crying too, wiping his nose and sniffling every now and then.

"I understand you, dad." Huh?! Wait wait wait wait. He understands me? What the hell? "When you were 'dead' I felt the same way. I still feel the same way. Like I need to be the one to protect my siblings and mom. Honestly, that's the reason why I got so interested in mafia once you left. I knew I needed to play your role from then on. So I- I understand why you felt that way. Sure killing your father isn't really, you know, good thing or whatever, but I'm hundred percent sure I'd do the same if I was in your position."

My eyes were opened as wide as they could. I was in disbelief. He doesn't hate me?

"But no, I don't think you're a monster. Because I know you're not. Maybe you look scary to other people but you're just putting a facade so no one knows you're such an emotional person on the inside. So no, you're not a monster. I kind of overheard your and mom's conversation yesterday. You didn't change a bit in my eyes. Well, actually you will, because it only shows how strong you are and it just explains some things that you do nowadays that are caused by those events and I didn't even know." I knew he fucking heard me and Lexi talk in the bathroom before he walked in yesterday.

"I love you, dad."
"I love you more, you don't even know." I hugged him as I parked in front of a bakery. I kissed his head as I held him tight, making him hold tighter onto me.

"I'll go in with you to choose what to eat." He said, making me nod my head as I took my wallet and we got out of the car.

We walked inside and bought some breakfast, before getting in the car again.

"So that's how gma and grandpa met?"
"Yeah." I nodded my head as I drove us back home.

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