Twilit Passion

Chapter 29

Chapter 29

Nakatihaya ako sa aking kama rito sa bahay namin sa Rosgracias. Kakatapos ko lang na mag-impake ng aking ilang gamit at nilagay sa kulay puti na maleta.

I was blankly staring on my ceiling for hours now. For the nth time I sniffles as my throat begin to dry. I was thankful last night because I arrived here safely despite the heavy feeling I felt. Nakaya kong magmaneho kahit na hilam ng luha ang aking mga mata at hanggang ngayon nga ay mahapdi pa rin ito.

I turned my head to the alarm clock on the side table beside my bed. It was already 10 o’ clock in the morning and I haven't eaten anything. Kahit na kumakalam na ang aking sikmura ay hindi ko na lang iyon pinansin.

I covered my face with my hands as another set of tears begin to flow. Dang! Wala na bang katapusan to? I hate myself to feel this way. Why is it so hard to be okay right now?

Dumagdag pa sa sakit na nararamdaman ko ang larawan na pinost ni Dulce Figueroa sa kanyang Instagram. It was posted last night and when I stalked her account this morning I've got to see a lot of people congratulating them.

It is really true! Last night was their Engagement Party.

The pictures which I think was possibly stolen shots by her friends. She was clinging happily on his arms. While him was just simply sitting on the chair with a glass of wine on his hand. He wasn't smiling and just darkly gazing on his glass.

Hinahayaan niya lang ang babae sa kung ano gustong gawin nito. I could tell that he's quite tipsy based on his looks. At hindi ko na gustong isipin kung ano kaya ang nangyari pagkatapos ng party.

With a drunk man like him and a sexy woman on his side clinging and showing him all her secret assets like those cleavages. Halos lumuwa na ang mga ito sa kanyang dress. Who wouldn't look for that beauties?

Arghh!! Parang sasabog na ang aking isip sa dinadami ng senaryong pumapasok dito.

Bumangon ako sa aking kama at muling tiningnan ang wallpaper ng aking phone. Malungkot akong napangiti habang pinagmamasdan ang masayang mukha nito habang nakayakap sa akin. His side face was hiding at the crook of my neck. The white duvets were covering our naked bodies. This was the moment after we made love for the second time.

Damn! How can he ever did that? Why did he doesn't told me that his family were still pursuing the idea of him and Dulce at the end? Bakit siya pumayag kung gayon na alam niyang may girlfriend siya? He promised to me that he will settle everything but what happened? They were now engaged and it was the end for both of us.

Knock! Knock! Knock!

I heard a soft thud on my door and I knew already that it was Lolita. Mula pa kagabi ay pilit siyang kumakatok para kamustahin ako at bigyan ng pagkain. Ngunit hindi ko siya binuksan at iniiwasan ang mga tao sa labas.

“Lolita, I said I won't eat anything. Please..just leave me alone,” marahang wika ko at tumayo para pumunta sa aking bintana.

I opened my window as I welcome the light gentle wind. The nebulous sky is calming. Dahil sa mahabang pag-iyak ay parang naging blur ang aking paningin. Even so, I appreciate the beauty outside like the grassy, dry garden of Zarine plus the busy streets. Lahat ay walang hatid na kulay sa akin at pawang malulungkot na alaala lamang.

Narinig ko ang pag-click ng seradura hudyat na may pumasok. I sighed deeply.

“Loli, I'm not in the mood to eat.” Tumagilid ako at humalakipkip. “Lalabas ako ‘pag gutom na, OK?–” Napatigil ako sa pagsalita nang makita kung sino ang kasama ng dalagita. I caught a familiar scent of Fierce by Abercrombie and Fitch.