marvel women one shots

music-y.b w.m n.r

trigger warnings- mention of panic attack

Y/n POV

I've always loved my music. It was always there no matter what mood i was feeling or what was going on in my life. It was the one thing i knew i could always rely on.

Everyone knew i loved my music because if i wasn't sleeping or doing something that needed my full attention i would have my headphones in.

I wasn't anti social by any means i wouldn't block people out to listen to music but if i had any spare time that's how i would spend it.

Although everyone knew i loved music they didn't fully understand why. I hadn't really opened up to anyone other than Yelena because i thought it sounded a little stupid even though Yelena assured me it didn't.

I didn't have a specific type of music i listened too because i listened to a bit of everything. From pop to rap to sometimes heavy metal. It just depended on my mood to be honest.

Because i wasn't an open person no one besides Yelena knew that i had anxiety and was often prone to panic attacks. I could usually disguise them until i got into a safe space.

Well today i couldn't mask it.

Me and my mum do not have a good relationship. She used to abuse me mentally so i left and that's how i ended up here. She was a drunk so would sometimes send me messages, they never usually got to me but this one was different.

Mum: you are my biggest regret i never even wanted you

Me: what?

Mum: i just wanted to let you know that i regret ever having you.

I was sat in the main room with Wanda and Nat watching Friends on the tv when i got this message. It was completely out of the blue so i replied only to have my heart smashed into a million pieces.

My breathing started to get heavier and my voice was shaky and so was my hands.

"hey y/n what's wrong" Wanda grabbed me hand to stop me from shaking. I couldn't reply because i knew that my voice would break and so would i. I shook my head to try and signal for her not to worry but this only alerted Nat.

"calm down y/n it's okay" Nat started to rub my back but it didn't help. " i think she's having a panic attack" Wanda told Nat.

Nat immediately got up and ran to Yelena's office knowing she would know what to do.

My breathing only got worse and i was heaving for air to fill up my lungs but nothing helped.

Yelena and Nat came running in and Yelena took of towards our room.

She came back with my headphones and put them in my ears and started playing my favorite playlist.  i slowly started to calm down. Yelena scooped me up bridal style and took me to the roof to get some fresh air.

I layed there head in her lap as i had calmed down ad caught my breathe. I was looking up at the stars and Yelena was playing with my hair. I fell asleep in her lap and she took me to bed. She planted a kiss on my hairline and left me to sleep and she went to talk to Nat and Wanda.

"hey guys thanks for getting me and helping her"

"does it happen a lot, you just looked like you knew what to do" Nat questioned

" yeah she gets stressed out a lot by small things she doesn't really like to talk about it"

" you really care about you don't you?" Wanda said with a grin on her face

"yeah i guess i love her" i said now smiling. "i'm going to go to bed to make sure she is okay i'll se you in the morning" and with that Yelena joined me in bed and protected me from everything bad with her muscly arms and soft heart.