TPS: Chapter 44

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[] Axel de Ayala

The following days were a total mess. I had to face the court fighting for Axelus custody. It was really hard since I wasn't Axelus' biological father. Good thing, Joseph was on my side and helped me get Axelus' custody. Vanessa was also proven that she is not capable of taking care of the child due to her mental health issue. Bigla kasi siyang nagwala sa loob ng court at nakita ng lahat ang totoo niyang pag-uugali.

The judge approved of me taking care of Axelus. Kaya nakahinga naman ako ng maluwag. And since I'm no longer the CEO of the company. I now spend my time taking care of my son. Hinaplos ko ang mukha ng aking anak habang mahimbing itong natutulog. Mabuti na lang talaga at hindi siya isang iyakin na bata, iiyak lang siya kapag nagugutom o di kaya kapag puno ang kanyang diaper at kapag gusto niyang binuhat.

Kapag gising naman siya ay naglalaro kami o di kaya ay kinakausap ko siya kahit na hindi naman niya ako naiintindihan. Gusto ko lang na maramdaman niya ang presensya ko at iparamdam sa kanya na nandito lang ako para sa kanya, kahit na hindi ako ang totoo niyang ama.

My phone rang and it took my attention. I sighed as I stood up and answered, it was the chairman who's calling me.

"Yes, Chairman. Napatawag po kayo?" I asked.

I heard him sighed on the line before he spoke. "I called because I still can't believe you stepped down from your position." He said.

I chuckled.

"You've been protecting that your whole life." Chairman added.

"I know and because of that I wasn't able to protect that only person I wanted to spend the rest of life with." Malungkot kong turan. Nalaman ko rin noong isang araw from my Gerard that Kaenu is no longer here in the Philippines. Pinahanap ko siya ang we found out that he is somewhere in New York.

Gusto kong lumipad agad-agad para bawiin siya dito sa tabi ko but his father asked me to let Kaenu live in peace first. Isa pa hindi rin ako makaalis dahil sa masyadong pang bata si Alexus to travel abroad.

"I see. Well, I can see that Joseph is doing his best and he is smart too." Chairman commented.

Napangiti naman ako sa naging komento niya sa aking kapatid. If you guys are still confused. Joseph Antonio de Ayala is my half brother/cousin. Anak siya ng aking Ina kay Tito Leo which is my Father's brother.

"I know. And please take care of him like how you take care of me, Chairman." Pakiusap ko. Chairman is with me since I was just a child. He's the only one that my father trusted me the most at para ko na rin siyang totoong ama.

"Of course and by the way, Axel. I'm proud of you, son." He said before he ended the call.

I sighed once again and put back my phone in my pocket. When I was a kid I was so eager to be on top. Because I want to prove myself na hindi ko kailan ng kahit na sino sa buong buhay ko. But the truth is, being at the top is lonely and when I saw Kaenu that night. I felt too much excitement, ngumiti ako ng walang dahilan just by thinking of him. I started to care about someone else's feelings.

And without knowing I suddenly changed.

Because of love.


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"Pero hindi mo pa rin maitatanggi that you cheated and lied on him." Pancho said at hindi ako nakailag nun. What he said is true. Kahit balik-baliktarin man ang mundo hindi mabubura ang kasalanan ko kay Kaenu. "And if he found someone else. Labas ka na dun dahil nakipaghiwalay naman siya sayo. It's been almost a year and I doubt that he knows what is happening to you. Kaya huwag kang masyadong kampante dyan. Marami pang mas gwapo sayo dun sa New York." Pancho added, na mas lalo lang nagpakaba sa akin.

Alam kong hindi matatawaran ang kasalanan ko sa kanya. But I will do everything just to have him back. But for now hahayaan ko muna siya. I'll let him leave in peace, I'll let him do whatever he wants, I'll let him heal at kapag ako pa rin ang mahal niya and when I come to see him. Then I consider myself a lucky bastard.

"Hey, hindi ako narito para paiyakin ka. Come on, Axe! Don't cry!" Pancho said. Hindi ko namalayan na umiiyak na pala ako.

I chuckled and dried up my tears. Huminga ako ng malalim at kinalma ang aking sarili. "So, how are you and Renz?" I asked, pag-iiba ng usapan.

Pancho forms a sweet smile from his lips. Looks like someone is ready to tie the knot. "Getting stronger. Damn!" Pancho said with a wide smile.

Napangiti na rin ako dahil sa sagot at reaksyon niya. He looks so nilove. Nakita ko na siyang nainlove noon kay Elle but I know this time it's different. He finally found a home.



I'm in front of Katara's house. Ilang beses pa akong napalunok bago ko pinindot ang doorbell ng kanilang bahay. Since Kaenu and I broke up I haven't seen Katara. Nalaman ko rin na nanganak na pala siya and she had a baby girl.

Nahigit ko ang aking hininga ng bumungad sa akin ang mukha ni Katara. I heard her sighed before she let me get inside her house. Dala ko rin si Axelus dahil wala rin akong mapag-iwan.

"So, hindi mo siya binigay sa totoo niyang magulang?" Panimula ni Katara while glancing at my son.

Umiling ako. "I'll be his father, Joseph already agreed." I said.

Tumango-tango naman sa akin si Katara. "I see and if you're here for Kaenu's whereabouts I'm not gonna tell anything. Mabuti pa na umuwi ka na lang." Katara calmly.

Napayuko ako. "I'm not here for that. I just wanna see you and Krist."

"We are fine. But you promised me Axel. You promised to me that you wont hurt him but, here we are. Ni hindi ko alam kung ano na ngayon ang lagay ni Kaenu doon sa ibang bansa. If he's really okay or not. I want to get mad at you but I can't. Damn you de Ayala." Mahabang turan sa akin ni Katara showing how frustrated she is to me.

"He never called. Kausap ko lang ay si Tita and sabi he is still undergoing a lot of Medications, Psychotherapy and Exposure Therapy. Para tuluyan na siyang gumaling." Katara told me. Hindi na ako nagulat dahil iyon din ang pahayag ng ama ni Kaenu sa akin. Pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasan na masaktan. Because I want to be there for him, support him and be the person he can always lean on to but, I'm not.

"I'm sorry." Ang tanging nasambit ko kay Katara.

Pagka-uwi ko sa bahay ay maingat kong nilagay sa kanyang higaan si Axelus. I caressed his small face and smiled faintly. Tinignan ko siya ng maiigi bago ako lumabas ng silid para kumuha ng maiinom. I felt so exhausted by just talking with Katara.

Everytime we talked about Kaenu ay nanghihina ako. Ginawa ko naman lahat ng makakaya ko para protektahan ang relasyon namin and I thought that was enough. But I was wrong. Hindi sapat lahat ng ginawa ko because I still manage to drag him to my mess and most all, nasaktan ko siya.

Kahit na sabihin sa akin ni Kaenu na mahal na mahal niya ako. Hindi parin mawawala ang katotohanan na ako ang dahilan kung bakit tuluyan siyang bumitaw sa akin at piliin na iwan ako.

Maybe this is a lesson for me.

Hindi sapat na mahal ko lang siya. Relationships are built on trust, so honesty is very important in a relationship. And I don't have both of these, which is why I failed as a boyfriend.

I failed to protect him. 

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