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Chapter 5

*Allison's POV*

I put on a sickenly sweet smile.

"Yes Harry? Is there something you wanted?" I ask a bit coldly. I'm sure he already knows it's me, so there's no use pretending I don't know it's him either.

"Allison, I wanted to say, I'm so sorry." he says. And there is a sincere apology in his voice. But there's another thing. Pain. Agony. And I'm loving every minute of it.

"Sorry for what?" I ask.

"Listen, can we not do this here? Is there somewhere more private we can go?" he asks. I sigh.

"Follow me." I'm only doing this so I can yell at him some more. I don't give a shit how many times he apologises, there's nothing he can say or do that can make me forget what he did to me. I lead the way to my small cubicle of an office and shut the door, leaving us alone.

"I wanted to say I'm sorry. For everything. For abandoing you, for lying to you, and most importantly, for shattering your heart and breaking your trust in me." he begins. I can see tears start to well up in his eyes and for a moment, he looks like the old Harry. My Harry.

"There will never be enough time for me to say I'm sorry to you. There aren't enough times that I can say I'm sorry and you'll know how much I truly mean it. There isn't a good reason for what I did to you except I'm a fucking idiot. I was and still am filled with guilt because of what I did to you. But I did love you. I do still care about you." he says. "And even if you don't forgive me, please know, that I'm so so sorry." he finishes, his voice a mere whisper by the end. A couple tears escape his eyes and I have the strong impulse to hug him and call him 'my wittle Hazza Bear', but I don't.

"Why'd you do it?" I whisper sadly to him. I wish I could say that I stayed strong and that I was angry and yelled, but I didn't. In my mind, he was still my best friend. And I knew he was sorry and that he meant it, even though my heart said otherwise. He looks surprised that I'm not yelling as well.

"Josh and Dave said that you'd ruin my reputation. That you were a hanging thread and I needed to cut you loose. I was filled with so much guilt and I didn't want to do it, but I was stupid. I was an idiot, and I did it anyway. There's nothing I can say to justify what I did." he says.

"How long will you be here?" I ask him.

"Two weeks." he answers simply. He starts to move towards me slowly, as if not to scare me. "I know it's probably too much to ask, but, is there any way that we can start it all over again?" Tears start to well up in my eyes and slowly start to spill over. I can see Harry fighting the impulse to pull me in his arms and hug me like he used to when I would cry.

"But, I don't want to start all over again. I want to start as if we'd never ended. As if you'd never done what you did." I say in a whisper becuse my throat is dry as I try to fight back more tears.

"What are you saying Alli Cat?" he asks, using my old nicknme that only he could call me.

"I mean, I'm not saying I forgive you or trust you, and I can't call you my friend again, just yet, but I've missed you. And I...I guess I can give you one more chance. " I say, a small smile tugging on my lips. His face breaks out in that adorable smile that I've always loved, his dimples showing. Now, he really looks like my Hazza Bear. He runs up and hugs me and then pulls back quickly, looking at my face to see if it was apropriate. I hug him back and he wraps his strong arms around my waist. God, I've missed him doing this.

"Thank you Alli. I'm going to prove to you that I really am sorry. And, I know it'll take time, but I will try really fucking hard if it us being friends again." he says.

I give him a small smile. "Maybe, Harry." I tell him. That makes him smile even brighter, if that were possible.

"Here," he says. "This is my number. We can't hang out today, but I swear, we'll hang out while I'm here." he says. I don't want to get my hopes up too high only to have them shatter to the ground, but I can at least give him a benefit of a doubt.

"Okay." I say and open my office door while Harry gives me a smile.

"Bye Alligator." he says and winks, making my heart skip a beat.

"Bye Haz." I say and I can't help but smile. He turns and walks back to where the rest of the boys are waiting. I can't believe what just happened. A couple hours ago, I was ready to slap the shit out of him, but, actually being able to talk to him, I realised that I can't do that because I still love him. Way down deep inside, I still care about him, and I could see that by doing what he did to me, it hurt him too. And I hated seeing my best friend hurt, and I didn't want to hurt him anymore. I'm just hoping that he feels the same way.

A/N

Sorry if it's sort of a short chapter. What do you think is gonna happen between them? I'm excited to see where it goes. Thanks for reading! I know i'm gonna be up all night writing more even though it's school night. Love you guys! xxx