Two Worlds Apart

Chapter 6

"Mum just hold on a bit, Jeff's almost here" I managed to say through my sobs

"Courtney stop, stop really it's okay" my mum gave a weak sad smile

"How can you call dying okay" Sophia sobbed

"Girls listen, taking meds is only making it worse, it's just more suffering" she said while rubbing my hair

"You'll be fine, Jeffrey's almost here" I take her hand in mine "just hold on a bit, please" I beg

"Sweetheart it's not that easy, lung cancer isn't just like having a cold, besides you already sold your sewing machine just to pay my hospital bill" she points out

"I'd take a loan if you'd just let me" I was seriously breaking down, I couldn't bare seeing her like this

"I told you no, if you're taking a loan it will be to start up your business" she strictly said

"A business? You're dying!" I yelled

"But I'm not complaining am i" she calmly said letting out a grunt with one hand on her stomach

"Mrs Jones please" Sophia choked out

"Listen to me girls, any loan you will be collecting will be for your well being, I won't let you keep buying my medication just for me to die at the end"

"You're not going to die" how could she casually say that

"Courtney, Jeffrey missed his interview for this, he should be there now"

"He's not complaining, he just wants to help you. He's worried, we're worried" Sophia manages to say

"Worried tat he also gave up his savings?" She asked

"Mum please..."

"I'm here I got them" Jeffrey runs

I immediately get up and take the drugs from him. I hand them to Sophia and quickly rush to the kitchen to get a glass of water

"Here, take them" I hand her the water while Sophia held the capsules in her hand

"I won't" she said and I felt a wave of anger, fright and anxiety rush through me

"Mum don't be stubborn, this is your life we're talking about!" I yell at her. I was stressed, depressed and most of all I was scared, very scared of losing her

"You have better things to do with your life instead of taking care of me. Courtney please let it rest, let it go, all these drug taking is only making me weaker and more of a burden" she sighs

"You're not a burden Mrs Jones, we really care about you" Jeffrey said

"You're all holding on too tight to this" she looks at me "Courtney my love, let it rest, let me rest, aright?" She smiled, using her thumb to caress my cheek

I couldn't say anything, I just sat there crying, was I really going to do this? I held on to her hand that was on my cheek, closing me eyes tightly but just then I heard Sophia's voice

"Courtney?"

I suddenly opened my eyes and found myself in my room, she was sitting beside me with a worried look on her face

"Wh..What happened?" I asked, my throat felt so dry

"You..You were calling for your mum" she had a sad expression on her face "and you're..you're crying" she puts her hands on my cheeks.

I touched my cheeks and they were actually wet. Remembering my dream, i immediately break down. I held on tightly to my bed cover as I kept sobbing. She drew closer to me, wrapping her arms around me as I cried into her shoulder, I hugged her tightly like my life depended on it.
      It's been 2 years but I couldn't get over it, I didn't know how. She was all I had after my dad passed but she unfortunately joined him too soon. It wasn't fair that I had to lose them both but never has life been fair to me, it was one badluck after another and i didn't know how to get rid of it

"Please Courtney, I hate seeing you like this" Sophia said, I could tell she had started crying due to her sniffing

"It's not fair" I choked out

"Life is never fair to any of us but what exactly can we do, I miss her too" she rubs my back

If I could go back in time and find a way to turn our situation around, I would in a heart beat

I'd give anything to get them both back and turn our unfortunate situation around.

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It was a long night, I ended up falling asleep again after crying and Sophia stayed awake with me, I don't think I could every ask for a better best friend

She was one in a million

I was casually sitting in my living room, watching TV and eating cereal before I heard

"You done eating?" She happily runs into the living room

"Almost why?" I curiously asked looking away from the TV

"Well my darling angel we're going out today" she had a huge grin on her face

"Where to?" I sit up straight

"Well we're going into town today. We'll go check out some animals at the zoo, have some snacks, probably watch a movie, basically just have fun then we'll end by watching the sunset" she said with so much excitement

"By the lake?" Now i was getting excited

"Yup"

"What's the occasion" I asked

"Can't we just have fun?" She sits beside me

"Well we can. When are we leaving?" I asked stuffing my mouth with cereal

"Right now actually" she takes my bowl and set it down on the center table "let's gooo" she starts pulling me towards the bedroom

I didn't even get to finish my cereal

...............

I thought all I needed was to get some rest or probably sew to get my mind of my dream last night but this was way better

I hadn't had this much fun in a while. First of all we went to the movies, we watched a horror movie even though I totally despise them. We went to the amusement park, I don't know why but I suddenly had this weird crave for cotten candy. We went on a lot of rides and I almost died on most of them just so you know but I'm still magically alive somehow.

After that we went to the zoo and honestly I think I just fell in love with baby monkeys, they're freaking adorable Goddd. I loved exploring the zoo and my best part was when Sophia almost got stripped by a chimpanzee, that was super hilarious and the video's totally a keeper. I don't know why I'm just noticing this but flamingos are very pretty and I'm not talking about their facial appearance but in tense of colour, most of them have very radiant pink and I love those, a lot, I even took pics.

After all of that, we ended up watching the sunset by a lake side

"I had so much fun today" Sophia said with a smile

"Me too, but I'm kinda hungry now" I slightly rub my stomach

Sophia looks around before saying "there's a cafe over there" she points at a distance

"Of we go"

...........

"I could really use an iced coffee right now" Sophia said while we both strolled towards the cafe

"I need a warm cup of coffee probably with some....."

"Courtney!"