Aiming for Hades

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Warning: R-18

"I love you..." he hugged my butt as he entered me.

I moaned. I felt it. Waves after waves of pleasure. I bit his lips as I got a hold of it when he guided me again for a better position. Isang linggo. Isang linggo kaming hindi nagkita at ang daming nangyari. I missed him so much.

"Ah," I moaned again. "Hades, oh god..."

I didn't know what else to do but scream and just enjoy the pleasure he gives. I held onto him so tight because I felt like every time now I'm gonna fall on the floor.

"I... I love you... Hades..." sagot ko sa sinabi niya kanina.

I saw his smile as I tried to kiss him. Lagi siyang masaya 'pag gano'n. 'Pag sinasabi kong mahal ko siya. Looking back... Who knew he would be in love with me too?

"I love you more, Elle..." he whispered and then kissed my forehead.

I smiled and told myself I will treasure and make sure I'm always gonna remember this. My eyes became teary. Indeed, I will. He will hold a special place in my heart.

I will miss him so much. I will long for this. I will surely be broken more than anyone else but guess what? I don't care. Anything for Hades. It's you over my world, baby.

I know he's a heavy sleeper so I took that as an opportunity to leave as early as I can. It hurt. Sobrang sakit. If only he knew... If only I could tell him. Na, Hades, para sa 'yo 'to. Para sa 'tin. Para sa anak nating dalawa.

He still doesn't know. I don't plan to tell him too. Not with what's happening right now. Hades... we were so perfect. I dearly loved him. He was a snob. He was so cruel. He rejected me many times. But I really didn't give him up.

Now where did it brought me?

That was the key but I didn't even think about the consequences. I didn't even think about my position in his life. That was my mistake. Nagulat ako nang medyo magmulat ng mata si Hades. Ngumiti siya sa 'kin na parang kontentong-kontento siya sa estado namin. Gano'n siya lagi kaya nakasanayan ko na lang.

"I love you," he whispered and hugged me a bit before closing his eyes again.

Kada magkasama kaming matutulog at magigising siya ng kaunti, gano'n talaga siya. I feel so loved by him. It was like my worries should be gone because there's someone here... who loves me so much. For someone to think about me in their sleep or when they wake up. When working or even when doing nothing. My heart hurt. I know I couldn't just leave him! Masakit sa 'kin ang gagawin ko! But... But this is for us, my love. This is for our child... Please... Please, understand, in time.

Nagsituluan na ang luha ko ngunit ayaw kong umiyak na lang bigla rito dahil baka magising na talaga siya. I remembered our old days. Tumayo na ako at inalis ang yakap niya sa 'kin. Hinawakan ko ang bibig dahil sa paghikbi.

It was like when I caught his hands and made it leave my waist, we can no longer touch each other again. But then, I believe in him. I believe in you, Hades. I know you would understand.

"I love you so much, Elle," I remember our used to be normal days that he'll make me feel so loved, "Baliktad na talaga. Ako na 'yung patay na patay sa 'yo."

Tumawa ako. "As if," I rolled my eyes.

"It's true! You don't even get jealous while I get jealous so often I could die!" tumawa ako sa pagiging OA niya! "But I'm serious, Elle..." he trailed off.

Sumeryoso rin tuloy ang tingin ko sa kanya ngayon.

"I hope you're aware that... I'm so in love you." he seriously said.

Memories that makes me go, 'The golden days'.

Ano kayang gagawin niya? Magagalit kaya siya sa 'kin? Hahanapin niya kaya ako? Ipinilig ko ang ulo at sa huling pagkakataon ay hinalikan ang noo ni Hades. God knows I will miss you so much. Now I realized why I am doing this. Why I am choosing to leave and be broken than stay and break him. Why I am sacrificing everything for him.

"I'm not gonna give up on you, Hades." I remembered the same exact words I said to him before.

He smirked that time and held my right hand, "I would never let you give up on me."

He whispered his I love yous but then, I knew, Hades.

It's me who loves you most.