Aiming for Hades

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After knowing that story, I told Hades about it.

He said his opinions truthfully saying that it's kind of a shallow reason of his Mom to still be mad at my mother for what happened in the past. I agreed though I was really scared of his Mom. He told me it's okay to voice my opinions out.

Mas nag-ingat tuloy ako sa mga kilos ko kapag magkikita kami ni Tita. Not that we see each others often. I actually didn't see her after I knew what happened in their past. Nagkikita kami ni Hades pero ganoon lang ulit dahil sa trabaho.

Sometimes, I wonder how I don't get tired with it.

I actually have said and think about this a lot of times but I still wonder why. I still always become amazed by how I keep on loving him... More so, he keeps on loving me. I don't know! I really just can't believe... especially that we started not that romantic or anything! It just... happened!

Believe me, I just wanted him to be mine at first. Because that's my forte. That's what I want. To get whatever or whoever I like. Back when I was a child, I didn't have a father. I didn't have anyone to call, "Dad" or "Tatay" or even a father figure... Well, except for my Mom. Before, I could care less.

Kasi... para saan pa ang 'Tatay' ko kung meron na naman akong Nanay? Well, that was back then...

Still, I knew, I am incomplete.

Wala akong tatay.

Itinakwil ng Lola ko si Nanay dahil sa 'kin. Hindi naman si Nanay nabuntis ng maaga pero hindi ko alam... Ang Tita ko ang nakapagkwento sa 'kin na dahil sa 'kin kaya itinakwil si Nanay. She didn't told me about the whole reason but I knew I was a part of it. Dati, ginusto kong sisihin ang sarili.

Not until I started reading books.

About romance. Literature. Or any single genre that have ever existed. It made me experience things that I haven't literally 'experience'. I learned many things. Kasama na ro'n ang pagtigil sa pagsisisi sa sarili ko. I liked books so much that if I were to choose whether it's the world inside every page or this world I'm living, I would choose them.

I would always.

And then Hades happened.

The books that made me experience the things I didn't literally experienced... suddenly is set aside. Hades became first. All of what the books taught me... suddenly acted in real life. I was in love. Madly in love. Not because the book made me, but now because Hades did.

I sighed as I continued thinking.

Iyon nga siguro... Kaya mahal na mahal ko si Hades. Kaya hindi ako nagsasawa. I suddenly think about his feelings.

Bakit hindi siya nagsasawa?

"Baby, let's date!" halos hindi ko naproseso ang nangyari nang biglang sumulpot si Hades sa harapan ko!

It was a good thing I have my very own office now, kasi kung hindi, maririnig na naman siya ng mga office mate ko at i-re-report na naman ako na hindi maayos ang trabaho dahil inuuna ko ang ibang bagay! Iyon ang mga nangyari at the past months that I worked here! If I know, inggit lang sila sa 'kin!

And one more thing, baka makita siya ng President namin... Not that our President's office is here, pero kahit na! Sa nalaman ko pa lang noong nakaraan, e! Baka mag-away pa sila! Buti nga kapag pupunta rito si Hades ay sinusundo niya lang ako agad at umaalis na agad kami, kaya hindi siya naaabutan kung bibisita man ang President sa department namin.

I have no freaking idea when the news about AXEA taking over our rank in our industry is one of Hades' parents' company! Sa huli naming usap ni Hades no'n ay nag-so-sorry ako sa kanya... Sinabi ko rin no'n na pupuwede naman akong mag-resign sa company na 'to at humanap na lang ng ibang trabaho pero hinindian niya 'yon at sinabing ayos lang naman daw!