One-Sided Love [MICHAENG]

Chapter 44

Jihyo's pov

I was getting ready to meet up with Mina. I found myself staring at the mirror and questioning myself if I would tell her or not.

I went to my bed and took Mina's teddy bear that she gave me when we were little. I hugged it and composed myself before going out.

I was planning to confess to Mina today before telling her about Chaeyoung. I decided to confess to her first because if I tell her first about Chaeyoung, I might have not had a chance to let her know about how I felt towards her.

Before I went to meet her, I went to my friends first.

"Jihyo? What are you doing here?" Nayeon asked as soon as I walked into her house. All of my friends were at Nayeon's house.

"I have to tell you something." They stopped what they were doing and looked at me.

"I'm am going to meet Mina today, and I will confess to her."

"What? How? I mean... have you talked to Mina?" Sana asked.

"Yeah, I did. I'm going to confess to her, and probably a day after, I will tell her about Chaeyoung."

"Will she be okay?" Momo asked.

"Probably not, but I also don't think we should hide it from her anymore. She deserves to know what's happening, and... she is the only one who can heal Chaeyoung." My voice broke. Nayeon went closer to me and hugged me.

"I'm sorry..." Nayeon said as she caressed my back. I don't know what she was sorry for, but I'm glad that someone held me.

"I won't be able to tell Mina face to face about Chaeyoung. I don't think I can, so I will probably just text her which hospital Chaeyoung was in. I know you guys visit Chaeyoung every day. When Mina goes there, please... hold her for me." I wiped my tears and went out.

I took the bus to the bridge where we will meet. It was afternoon, so there won't be that many people there.

I don't feel anything now but sadness and pain.

After the 30-minute bus ride that felt forever, I arrived at the bridge. Mina was already there.

As I was walking towards her, I can feel my tears about to escape from my eyes. I went closer to her and hugged her immediately.

"Hey, is there something wrong?" Her voice was filled with worry.

"No, let me just hug you for a while. I'll miss you."

"Why would you miss me? I will always be here." She chuckled and hugged me back.

After some time, I broke the hug and smiled at her.

How I wish I can be with you till the end.

"So, what do you want to tell me?"

I can do this.

I averted my eyes to the view and started.

"You know, when I met you when we were little, I was the happiest kid ever. I always talked about you to my friends and family about how beautiful and kind you are. I felt like I was the luckiest ever. As we got older, I became closer to you. We would always hang out, tease each other, make fun of each other, and be there for each other whenever we are having a tough time. Those were really the best moments in my life."

"Yeah, me too. I'm really lucky to have you, you know?"

I averted my eyes to her and saw her smiling at me. I want to see that smile every day.

"I treasure our friendship a lot, Mina and I will continue treasuring it till the end of time, but I hope what I will say next will not ruin this friendship."

"W-what is it?" I can tell that she became nervous.

"During those times that I took care of you, I held you, I hugged you, and I spent time with you, I am not just your best friend. I didn't do all of them just as your best friend."

"Then... what?"

"I did those, as someone who loves you more than that."

Mina became silent while I was trying my best not to cry.

"Y-you what?"

"I love you, Mina." I looked into her eyes. Those eyes that I wished will see me.

"Don't feel pressure about it, Mina. But I want you to know, that I meant what I said. It's fine if you won't return my feelings because I know that your heart is already reserved for someone else." I smiled sadly at her. Tears had started to escape from both of our eyes.

"I'm sorry, Jihyo. I'm sorry..." I didn't let her finish. I hugged her immediately.

"Shhh, stop saying sorry. You didn't do anything wrong." I caressed her hair and hugged her tighter.

"How can I? You are always there for me. To hold me when I broke down because of Chaeyoung, but I didn't know that I am hurting you already. I'm sorry that I didn't notice how you feel because I was so blinded by my love for her. I'm sorry... I'm so-" She couldn't finish her words as she started crying.

"You were also always there for me. You held me, cared for me, and let me feel loved. Those were enough for me already, so stop saying sorry." I broke from the hug and wiped her tears.

"Don't worry, nothing will change between us. I am still your best friend, and you are still my best friend. But... can you grant me a wish?"

"Hmm?"

"Can I... Can I have you just for one day?" My voice broke again. I was about to cry again.

I waited for her answer, and after some minutes she nodded and hugged me.

"Thank you," I said and hugged her back.

"Let's stay like this until later, please?" She asked as she hugged me tighter.

"I would love that."

We stayed there hugging each other and treasuring this moment.

I hoped for the time to stop for now.

I wanted to hold her as long as I can before someone will hold her like I used to.

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Two updates for today! Hope you like it, even though I know it will make you cry :))