One-Sided Love [MICHAENG]

Chapter 40

Chaeyoung's pov

"Yah Son Chaeyoung!"

I was taking a rest when suddenly some angry tofu came to my apartment just to scold me.

"Stop screaming in the morning." I sat down and fixed myself.

"You haven't gone to school for 3 days already. Are you really planning to drop out?" Dahyun said as she approached me.

"That would be nice." I shrugged, but then I received a smack from her.

"What the heck?" I looked at her madly.

"The teachers kept asking us where you are. We are already running out of excuses, so go to school now!"

"I didn't tell you to make excuses for me."

"Whatever, go to school tomorrow. Oh, and since you didn't come to school for 3 days, you probably haven't heard the news."

"What news?"

"Anna, the famous model that was supposed to come to our school."

"What about her?"

"The school said she won't come anymore. It was really weird. Such a shame, we're really excited to see her."

"I don't care about that anymore."

"I'll get going. Go to school tomorrow or else I beat the hell out of you." Dahyun went out as I rolled my eyes at her

"I deserved to be beaten anyways. I deserve to be in pain." I sighed and looked at the window. It was snowing.

"This will be the first time I won't be enjoying winter."

I watched the snow falls as I reminisced the memories of Mina and me every winter.

We would play all day long in the snow, throwing snowballs at each other and making a snowman.

It is also every winter that we make a wish.

flashback

"Hey! I didn't throw that big at you Chaeng! That's unfair!"

"You're older, so you deserved to be hitten by a bigger snowball! Hahahahaha."

"Pshh, let's rest for now. I'm tired."

"The sight of the snow falling from the sky is really amazing."

"Let's make a wish now?"

"Okay..."

"I'm done... what did you wish for Chaeng?"

"I won't tell you."

"That's unfair!"

"Why? Would you tell me yours?"

"Of course not."

"My wish is always the same. I wish for the same thing over and over."

"So is mine. Probably someday, I'll get to tell you what it is, Chae."

end of flashback

All I can do is smile sadly, reminiscing our memories together. It was really painful knowing that I won't have another memory with her this winter.

It's my fault anyway.

I'm so dense to not realize how she felt towards me. It was so foolish of me to talk about how much I like Irene to her.

It must've been so painful for her.

Also, it must've been so painful for Jihyo.

I was the reason why my 2 friends are broken. I broke them without me knowing. And now that I know, it is killing me slowly. The guilt is killing me slowly.

But I deserve it. I deserved to feel this. I deserved to suffer just like how Mina and Jihyo suffered. That was all I can think of now.

I didn't go to school because I might come across Mina. I don't have the courage to face her. After all the pain I caused her, I don't deserve to see her.

ring ring ring~

"Who could be calling me?" I grabbed my phone and answered the call.

"Hello?"

"Hello, Chaeyoung?"

"Oh, Irene, why did you call?"

"Want to go out somewhere peaceful?"

I didn't want to go out, but probably going somewhere peaceful will be nice after isolating myself.

"Fine, where will we go?"

"I'll text you the place. See you in an hour."

"See you." I hung up the call and with all the strength I have left, I took a shower and got dressed.

...

"How are you these days?" Irene asked.

"Fine, I guess?" I replied. Irene brought me to a beach. It was really peaceful.

Hearing the sound of the waves and smelling the scent of the sea somehow brought comfort to me.

"I know you aren't. I noticed you are not yourself these days. But I won't force you to tell me what's bothering you. I just wanted you to know that I'm always here to lend my ears and time for you."

"Thank you." I smiled at her.

Silence engulfs us. It was a comfortable silence.

Even though it was peaceful, I can't stop my thoughts about Mina. I regretted a lot of things, and that includes not returning her feelings.

I like Irene, but I am also confused about my feelings towards Mina.

"Irene..."

"Hmm?" She looked at me.

"I have something to tell you."

"What is it?"

"I... actually... I l-like you." I was nervous, but at the same time, I wanted to let it out now.

"Wow... I didn't expect that." She looked shocked by my sudden confession. I mean, who wouldn't right?

"I hope you won't feel troubled about it, and we'll still stay the same as before."

"I'm thankful knowing that someone like me. But don't worry, we'll still stay the same, of course. But, I'm sorry... I can't return your feelings."

"It's fine. I knew it. I just want to say it to you already."

"I'm not the right person for you. But I know, someday, the right person will come for you."

"I don't know about that. I just lost that person, and I know she won't come back anymore."

"That's not true. If she's really the right person for you, if she truly loves you, no matter how long she will distance herself from you, her love for you will remain. That's how powerful love is. It is so powerful that even if you tried to stop it, you won't be able to."

"Isn't it unfair? If she loves me and I don't love her? Isn't it painful loving someone who doesn't even realize that person's feelings and you can't do anything about it?"

"It is painful... very painful, but that's when you will know, that it is true love."

"True love?"

"Hmm, when you love someone, and it hurts, that love is true love. You won't cry for a person who you don't love. You won't endure the pain if you don't love that person. It is true love when it hurts."

Back then, I don't realize anything about love, but when I saw Mina leaving me, crying in front of me, hurting because of her love for me, I realized it all now.

And that includes my feelings for her.