Winter In Autumn

Chapter 17

Kyst's POV

"I'm no longer happy with our relationship. It's not the same as before."

I chugged the glass of beer before I get another one. I'm currently here in the bar with my friend Harry. He's the only friend of my mine that can stand seeing me like this. He's one call friend.

"Nagkakalabuan na ba kayo?" He asked me before drinking his beer.

I smiled bitterly. "Yeah."

I feel his eyes on me. "Anong nangyari?"

"Nothing. I just feel she's just pain in my ass."

"You're kidding, aren't you? This is not the right time for your joke, asshole."

I shook my head slowly. "No, I am not." I breath heavily. "There are times sa kaniya ko naibubunton ang ng galit ko. Sinasaktan ko siya physically, mentally and emotionally."

I laughed. But I feel empty.

Dinig ko ang pagmura ni Harry nang paulit-ulit. I know he want to punch me right here, right now.

He stood up. "That is a bullshit, Kyst! Why did you do that? Gago, fiance mo 'yon! Siya 'yong babaeng pinagmamalaki mo samin noon. Siya 'yong babaeng totoong nagmamahal sa'yo kahit tarantado ka! What the hell! Anong nangyayari sa'yo?"

Tiningnan ko siya ng masama. He haven't the right to shout at me.

"Simmer down. Pinagtitinginan tayo."

Huminga muna siya ng malalim bago sundin ang utos ko. Nilagok niya ang isang bote ng alak.

"Hindi mo na ba mahal si Leign?" Tanong niya na may halong inis.

I stopped playing my glass. Napaisip ako sa tanong niya. Do I still love her?

I d-don't know.

"Hindi na." I lied.

"Liar. I know you still love her. You keep loving her and you will do. Kilala kita, Kyst, stop making me stupid."

I don't give him a fuck. Wala sa plano ko ang magpakalasing ngayon pero aaminin kong nagkakaganito ako dahil kay Leign. Paulit-ulit siyang tumatakbo sa isip ko. How she kept her love for me despite the mistakes I made?

"Paano mo siya sinasaktan?" Seryosong tanong niya.

I faced him. Ang sama ng pakiramdam ko sa awra niya. Halatang hindi siya natutuwa sa'kin.

"Lahat ng maiisip mo," Sagot ko.

Peke siyang ngumiti. "Hindi ko alam. Hindi ko naman gawain 'yan."

"Tss."

"Masaya ka ba sa ginagawa mo? Sinasaktan mo ang dating iniingatan mo  . . . Dati-rati kasi para kang makakapatay ng tao kapag may nananakit sa kaniya tapos ngayon . . ." He just laughed hysterically.