Winter In Autumn

Chapter 48

Kyst's POV

An hour before the operation.

I'm lying on a operating table wearing a hospital gown, waiting to start the operation. I only have one hour left. Knowing after the operation I could not be able to see her again. Hindi ko akalain na ganito matatapos ang buhay ko.

Leign.

I miss her. Ilang oras palang lumilipas mula nang magkahiwalay kami pero gusto ko na siyang makita. Nasabi ko na lahat ng gusto kong sabihin sa kaniya at naayos ko na ang dapat ayosin. Wala na akong nakalimutan. Handa na ako.

Ilang minuto ang lumipas, tanging pag-alala lang sa mukha niya ang ginawa ko. I do remembering her face, her hair, her nose, every part of her face and even the way she smile, I don't want to forget those. I wish I could see her once again before my eyes closed permanently. Gusto kong mamatay sa kandungan niya.

Leign puntahan mo ako dito sa operating room. G-gustong kitang makita sa huling pagkakataon.

"Are you ready? I will call the nurses now," the doctor asked.

I smiled bitterly, I have my final decision now. "Y-yes."

"Wanna ask something before we start?" he asks.

"Just one favor."

"What is it?"

"May I borrow your phone? I wanna talk to her for the last time."

He nodded before walking out on the operating room, when he came back, he handed me his phone.

I dialed her number, after a second it ringing.

[ "Hello?" ]

Her voice.

"Leign," I called her name. My tears stream down.

[ "Kyst, nasaan ka? Kanina pa kita hinahanap." ]

I cleared my throat. "S-somewhere."

[ "Aalis ka na ba? Pwede bang 'wag muna? I have a good news! Nakahanap na ang mga doctor ng donor! Maliligtas na si Calvin." ]

I smiled bitterly. Hindi maikakaila ng boses niya ang sayang nararamdaman niya sa mga oras na ito, ngayon alam ko na tama ang naging desisyon ko.

I am the one who is you talking about, love. I am the donor.

"Leign?"

[ "Bakit? Sige magsalita kalang." ]

"Salamat," I said as I started crying.

[ "Para saan?" ]

"For coming into my life. Falling in love with you is the best thing ever happened to me. Mula n'ong dumating ka, marami akong nagawa. You gave me strength to face the most difficult days. K-kung alam ko lang na ganito ang mangyayari sana pala sinulit ko na habang kasama pa kita. I-im sorry for what I have done to you before." I look down and my tears stream down my face.

I let out some air. I cried silently.

[ "Kyst, ayos na, okay? Tapos na 'yon! ang importante okay na tayo at nagkapatawaran na. Alam mo, kahit na ganon ang nakaraan natin hindi ako nagsisisi na nakasama at minahal kita. Kahit papa'no naging masaya ako sayo. Kaya 'wag kana magsorry, okay? napatawad na kita ... matagal na." ]

Sapat na sakin ang mga sinabi mo, mapapanatag na ako sa kabilang-buhay.

"Thank you, Leign... I l-love you."

Finally, I said it...

[ "Kyst, mahal din kita ... as a friend." ]

"P-pwede bang sabihin mo 'yon ng walang karugtong?"

[ "Kyst." ]

"P-please?"

Ilang segundo bago siya magsalita.

[ "I love you, Kyst." ]

Hindi ko na napigilan ang emosyon ko. Napapikit ako. I ended the call so that she couldn't hear me crying. She said those words again.

"D-doc, I left letters on your table a while ago. P-please hand it over to her after this."

After this operation, I know, I could not be able to see her face again. I could not be able to hug and kiss her. I wish this love story of us could not be our ending.

If I were born again and reincarnated in the future, and destiny gives me the opportunity to be with her again, I will seek her wherever she is, for us and for our relentless love to continue. Kung sakaling mabuhay akong muli, siya at siya parin ang pipiliin ko.

— Hwaenna