|| second installment of "habit series" ||
Solari Dominguez has a habit of biting her fingernails, especially at the times that she's nervous or guilty. It was a normal mannerism for everyone, not until Justine Klein Olivarez kissed her one day when...
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I was blinded by how he was planning our future. Hindi ko na naman pinagtuunan ng pansin noong pawala-wala siya.
I asked, what happened? Why is he being like that again? Wala akong natanggap na sagot dahil ayaw na naman niyang makipag-usap.
Kapapasok lang ng December and we’re about to celebrate our fourth month in a relationship in two days pero ganito na naman siya. Ayaw na naman niyang makipag-usap kahit kanino and he’s shutting everyone out once again.
I texted Ate Valene to get some news about him. Ganoon lang din ang sinasabi niya.
Ate Valene: Ayaw naman ako pagbuksan be, pero wag ka masyado mag-alala. Gan’yan lang talaga siya minsan.
I bit my lower lip as I typed a reply.
Me: A
te, no offense meant but don't you think he needs to consult a doctor? Napapadalas kasi. I did my research and it's called social exhaustion. Usually, they want to be detached from anything or anyone if they are with people for a longer time than usual.
Takot na takot ako nang s-in-end ko ang text sa kan’ya. Gusto ko na ngang bawiin dahil alam kong talking about consulting a doctor can be offensive for some people. Pero dahil mas matanda naman hamak sa amin si Ate Valene, I hoped that she'll get my point.
Ate Valene: Don't say anything about that to him, ha?
Ate Valene: I tried convincing him pero nagalit siya nang sobra sa akin. Napapansin ko naman na bihira lang din siyang gan’yan kaya hindi ko na masyadong inisip. Ngayon lang talaga dumalas.
Napaisip din ako dahil noon, hindi rin naman siya madalas magkagan’yan. Noong hindi pa naman niya ako girlfriend, I doubt that he’s having moments like that.
Ako kaya ang dahilan? Is his mental being getting tired of me?
I immediately felt hurt after thinking about that. I bit my lower lip as I typed a reply.
Me: Ohh, sige ate. Msghihintay at magtitiwala na lang po ako sa kan’ya. Salamat po.
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indi na nag-reply pa si Ate Valene kaya naman ibinalik ko na ang cellphone sa side table at binalot ang sarili ng kumot.
As I closed my eyes, I immediately remembered what I thought earlier. Mabilis na umagos ang mga luha ko.
Ako nga ba ang dahilan?
It’s been two days and he still wasn’t responding to my texts. Hindi rin nakabukas ang phone niya dahil sinubukan ko siyang tawagan pero out of coverage siya. Hindi na rin ako nag-abala pang mag-text sa kan’ya ngayong gabi dahil nga hindi niya rin naman mababasa.
