🎐💫Lanterns|Xiaother one shots| COMPLETED (BEING RE-WRITTEN)

Self conscious ♡ (A little Angst)

//angsty but it turns into fluff- prolly a modern au although I guess it doesn't have to be!- ALSO POSTED A NEW BOOK EEEE!!//

Xiao hides himself in him and Aether's room. He had been off recently. Only wearing baggy clothing. He had seemed a lot more solemn recently. Even though he seemed stone-faced and cold all the time he never seemed truly solemn.

The boy lay on the bed, knees pulled up to his chest. He felt ugly, truly ugly. He hated how he looked. He felt ashamed of his body. He felt a tear run down his cheek.

"Weak" He scolded himself quietly, wiping the tear away only to find more following. He starts to sniffle, his lower lip quivering.

Archons, he hated himself. Why was Aether with him? Did he really love him? Why didn't Aether just leave him already? He didn't matter- Aether was too good for him, too beautiful too, too kind.

"Xiao..?" Aether whispered, concern lacing his voice.

Xiao, flinched in shock, not expecting Aether to come in. He couldn't see him in this state, he was supposed to be strong.

"You're crying-" Aether notices gliding over.

"Me? That's dumb I don't cry" Xiao sits up wiping his eyes and looking away.

"You're a horrible liar, y'know" Aether frowns scooting onto the bed. Xiao tries to move away but finds himself trapped in Aether's embrace.

"Let me go-" He hisses. He tries to squirm out of the tight hug but finds Aether's presence to soon relax him. He leans his face into Aether's chest, sniffling.

"What's wrong, sunshine?" He asks, using the nickname with a small smile. The nickname was not fitting in the slightest but.. Xiao still loved it. It made him happy despite the fact it was definitely more fitting for the other boy.

"I.. Nothing"

"You don't just cry like this for no reason.. I understand if you don't want to tell me but.. I just want to help so if there's any way I can.." The blonde trails off.

Xiao lets out a small sigh "I feel ugly.." Xiao whispers

"What.."

"I feel ugly and worthless and ashamed and.. And-"

"Hey shh.. Shh" Aether coos, pressing a soft kiss against the other's forehead.

"Xiao.. Don't say those things. You are beautiful, and perfect. I love every single inch of you. I will, no matter what you try and say '' Aether lifts the other's chin up with his finger. Leaning down and leaving a soft kiss on his lips.

"I love you so much okay.. You are so beautiful and it breaks my heart to know that you are ashamed of your body.."

Xiao nodded, rubbing at his eyes as Aether slid hands around his waist, wrapping him in another warm embrace. Aether rubbed gentle circles into his waist, tracing shapes into the other's side.

The two lover's stay in each other's arms. Aether occasionally presses a few soft kisses onto his face, whispering sweet nothings into his ear about how pretty he was.

Xiao couldn't help but smile. He swore his boyfriend was the personification of sunshine itself. Warm, bright, beautiful.. Although Xiao still felt self-conscious , he felt it slowly starting to calm slightly.

"I love you.. You are perfect, okay?" Aether finally whispers into Xiao's ear keeping him wrapped tightly in his arms.

"I love you too, Aether.." Xiao murmurs in return, feeling his face heat