Stardust Lost In Fallen Dreams

Mask of Life

I have worn this mask for so long I find myself searching for who I really am

I speak the words that are not mine but the thoughts of others

An actor upon the stage of life itself and it's tearing me apart

I am too afraid too insecure to find out who I truly am now 

When did living become existing for me?

I am lost to this mask and the air in my lungs is becoming trapped

I need someone to see me... I need there to be a person to find me

Lost inside the darkness of the pretence life can become

Trapped inside the mind that has held me... sheltered me from living for too long

The walls are building around me

the lies and the deceit are not going to break me this time

the falsehoods of friendship and love are going to fail to poison my very core

This mask... I do not want it anymore

I fear however that is all I have left to keep myself from tipping over from sanity to insanity

I am a false pretender to life

I am trapped inside a world of my own creation a web of dreams and mysteries

and I have never felt so alone as I do at this moment in my entire life

The clocks could stop their tick and time could stand still 

and I would never see, never notice that life has stopped all around me

One step infront of the mirror and I barely see myself

I see my eyes and they're etched with pain and distrust for who I am

I need to find someone anyone who can help me desipher who I truly am

I am a nothing... a nobody without this facade and it hurts me at every turn

Too long have I tried to be someone I am incapable of being

I am crying beneath my own skin screaming for the freedom to be me

Rip away this mask let be free.

Love me... see me... feel me for who I am...

Be the one to set me free.