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149. Chris Evans | Find Me

By : angelkurenai | Tumblr

Pairing: Chris Evans x Reader

Warnings: Age gap (maybe? both very legal anyway, but also inspired by 'Call me by your name')

Summary: Being away on college most of the time, you spend the holidays with your parents for the sake of family time. So when your father invites his good friend and business partner, Chris, to spent the holidays with you there is not much you can say or do about it. You're only left to reminisce the previous summer when you first met him, the sparks that flew and an almost-affair with the older man that could very easily happen any given second.

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"You know, if it wasn't for such a beautiful view I'd really think you are trying to avoid me."

His voice was smooth, soft and warm. Such a great contrast to the cold environment all around you, so cold that you were sure it had set deep within your bones and that thick woollen sweater did little to nothing to stop it from slipping in. Somehow, it was so warm that you could feel it creeping up your skin. But then again he always seemed to have this effect on you whether it was the coldest winter or the warmest summer. You closed your eyes and hoped, despite your heart's wishes, that it was your own imagination. You had been doing far too much thinking of the man, after all, it could just as easily be possible.

"I-" you started, turning your head to look at him and realize he was far closer to you than you first thought, making you hold your breath "I'm sorry, I didn't do it on purpose. I come here very often." you mumbled, tearing your eyes away from him to look over at the frozen lake.

"Suppose I can't really blame you for this." his smile was sweet, if not insanely adorable, as he shrugged a bit "It's not like there is a real reason for you to be in there... much as I tried."

There was a hint of bitterness, if not sadness, in his voice and eyes. The way he had his hands stuffed in his pockets, with the thick sweater and big jacket nearly swallowing up his entire frame made the broad shoulders that hid underneath nearly disappear. And that was no easy fit, you had seen just what was there – an image that would forever be imprinted in your mind – and you had to stop yourself from looking surprised at how fragile and innocent he looked at the moment.

The man alone could have you staring at him for hours but the sight next to you even more so than ever before. Because on his face you could see the kind of man that he didn't let show very often – not that there really was any time when all you did hear him talk about was business with your father – and you would be damned but you had to be honest at leat with yourself, he was making your heart beat rapidly in your chest. You were scared that if he looked at you in that very moment he'd see it, as if he could read it right in your eyes, and so you looked away hastily.

"Dad and mom don't know about it. I'm just used to doing this for a long time that my parents are too. So even if I haven't told them where I go, they know not to ask. That's all. I- I don't really think I've told anybody else. It's just that-" you chewed on your lower lip "Whenever there's too much going inside my head, being around people only adds to it. It's... hard to find someone that can take away that weight from you and so this place helps. Being alone helps." you willed yourself to look down at the crisp white snow instead of him.

But you had grown to know him so well, or at least to be able to tell in some inexplicable way, what his reactions would be. The kind of face expressions he'd pull that would have your heart yearning more for him that you were ready to fight with the part of you that wanted to look at him. It was dangerous looking at the man, let alone being with him and even more in such a close proximity. Was he a danger on his own or was it all in your own mind, you had not figured out yet and maybe you wished you didn't get to.