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106. Johnny Depp | Hollywood Affair

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Hollywood, it can be pretty at times, well if you can get past all the hustle and bustle, but at night, that's my favorite time. Just to go and sit on the hood of my car and over look all the city lights.

Sure, sometimes it gets lonely in this big ole city, I mean you wouldn't think it does, but being surrounded by millions of people and busy streets gets pretty lonely at times.

I have my friends, I have my acting career, and no body would think an actress gets lonely but they do, well I do.

That was until Johnny Depp came along.

When I first met Johnny, it was at a red carpet event for his new movie Mordecai. I knew who he was, and I've always been a fan but when I met him it was like there was a spark. I know how lame, but it's the best way to explain it.

That spark I felt, he felt too, and that's what started it all.

We've been friends for about a year now, we do anything and everything together. We'll go to parties, dinner, movies, red carpet events and anything and everything between. At first people talked, and they talked alot, most of it was rumors, how we've been dating, but what the public really loved to talk about was our thirty one year difference. It didn't bother me that Johnny was older, and it didn't bother him that I was younger. But I guess it bothered everyone else and their mother.

But, that didn't stop us hanging out. Really nothing could get between us, we were like glued to the hip. I'll admit it though, I've got a crush on him, a pretty big one, in fact. I've wanted to tell him for some time now but I fear he doesn't feel the same and I would look like a big dumbass spilling her feelings for her best friend, and I really don't want to ruin our friendship. It's not worth losing him over.

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Marylin Manson a friend of Johnny and I's were hosting a party, nothing out of the ordinary so we both agreed to go, together.

For about two hours now I've been watching two women drool over Johnny while he talks to them, their obnoxious laughter feeling the air, and he doesn't even say anything funny but they still laugh.

I rolled my eyes as I sipped on a solo cup of tequila, I just wanted to escape, forget these stupid feelings for Johnny, but the more I drank the harder it became to keep my mouth closed.

I took a hit of my cigarette as I sat on the couch, Johnny still talking to those two women.

"Just go over there and talk to them" Marylin said as he sat down beside me on the couch

"Is it that obvious?"

"Very, just go tell him how you feel"

I took another hit of my cigarette "it's not that simply, he's my best friend and I don't want to lose him over some spilt feelings"

"Trust me sis, he feels the same"

I looked over to Marylin "how do you know?"

"I'm not saying, go find out for yourself" he said giving me a nudge to my elbow as he stood up from the couch "you won't regret it" he said with a wink as he walked away.

I took a deep breath as I took the last gulp of my tequila, not even a full bottle of tequila could get me through what I was about to do, but I was feeling pretty good so maybe I'll be able to get through this.

I stood to my feet and pulled down my black thigh length dress, I took a deep breath and swallowed my nerves. I've never felt so nervous in my life, my heart began to race, my palms became sweetly and my stomach tied in knots.

"You got this" I whispered to myself as I began to walk over to Johnny. But the women stood to their feet and took Johnny's hand in his and began to lead him up stairs. My heart was broken, my buzz was making me feel angry, maybe more anger than I should of been. I felt a hand on my shoulder, I turned around and to my surprise there was Johnny. He dragged me off to an empty room.

"What's wrong love?" He asked whipping away my tears with his thumbs.

I shrugged my shoulders "I'm so stupid" I mumbled

"You're not stupid darlin" he said in the sweetest voice, I looked up at him.

"I'm stupid, I shouldn't love you, I shouldn't be in love with you... you would never want me"

Johnny wrapped his arms around me, pulling me into a warm embrace, he rested his head on top of mine, and began to rub my back.

"You're not stupid, I'm in love with you too" he whispered

I pulled away from him slightly, and looked deep into his eyes "you love me?"

"Since the moment I saw you"