⚠Smutty on 1st page & dotted throughout,warnings before hand on those chapters⚠
~:°~When THOSE types of dreams start becoming more frequent, will YN manage to keep the fast growing feelings inside that continue towards her over protective, childhoo...
Started in the diner when he went quiet and spaced out. But seeing Billy didn't help, maybe he'll say when you see him tomorrow...?
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Eddie's POV;
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"You two make a very cute couple" The waitress told us as she placed our fries on the table, I look over at y/n and she looks over at me, neither of us saying anything but man I wanted to...but I held back. It wasn't even that big a deal but what she said kept replaying in my head, we would make a cute couple...I wanted that,If only she knew the things I think about and dreams I have about her, and us...
but I know it can't happen and I understand,i know how she's scared and things and there's stuff I'm scared about also. I don't want to force things and make her uncomfortable, ever, how things are with us now and the messing around is...amazing, and if she wants it to stay that way as friends I'll learn to deal with it, because I'm not going to pressure things onto her when she's afraid.
The way she admires me, even the little things like my rings it melts my heart , I wanted to kiss her in that moment so fucking bad and the moment felt perfect, but she turned away from me and looked out at the diner and I knew she got nervous, we haven't kissed in public before or in front of people, I just wish there was a way I could help make her feel better about it and less nervous because I know she wanted to kiss me, I backed off and sat against the seat, I wasn't angry at y/n for not letting me kiss her...I was angry at myself because I can't think of a way to make it easy and less nervous for her,
I was frustrated with myself because I feel useless in this situation, I'm starting to feel like all the fooling around in private is getting too much for her...because of how moments like this that happen in public where she gets nervous, and I feel bad because it's mainly me hinting at things like the kiss. We finished up in the diner and I paid then we headed out over to my van till someone called y/ns name, we both turned around seeing Max walking over to us, I haven't seen her since the incident.
The thing I got nervous about at the motel and coming back to Hawkins was kinda how... if I did get caught I'd be put away for what we all thought at that time was murder, but now it would be attempted murder, but also for my drugs they'd find at the trailer and in the van which would add even more time on the sentence, but the thing I got MOST nervous about, which played on my mind more than being caught for attempted murder and possible drug charges was coming back to Hawkins and how the kids would view me now...because I knew they'd find out it was me who put Billy in the hospital, I don't regret doing it because he put his hands on y/n, and all the times he looked at her eyeing her up just exploded out of me. I got scared of losing those guys, they don't know how much I appreciate them all and I don't want them to be afraid of me now, I'd never hurt them or put them in danger I want to keep them away from all that. I knew Dustin was alright with me as he came to the motel, he told be about the rest of Hellfire and how they don't know what happened apart from Lucas who heard it from Max.
