Jaded affection / Eddie Munson

37. Ill never leave you

TW: NIGHTMARE & INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS

Monday

"MOM." I call out, I can't find her anywhere and I'm not quite sure ware I am. Its dark and I cant see anything.
"MOM."I yell out again. Still I hear nothing. My eyes start to fill with tears but I hold them back. I need to find out where I am. I move my hands in front of me trying to find a wall or door. My hands finally hit a wall and slowing I feel my way down it and my hand finally lands on a knob. I twist it and step into a dimly lit room. Ware the fuck am I? I then hear someone start to laugh but I don't know who it is or where it's coming from. I look around this room and see a door on the opposite side so I run to that and open it up. This room is a little brighter then the last one.

"MOM." I scream out.

Again I hear laughing. What is going on? This room is lighter but I see no windows or lamps so I cant see where the sores of the light is coming from. My eyes lock on another door so rush over to open that one but when I reach my hand to the knob the door suddenly swings open on its own and I see a dark figure that looks like a man standing in the middle of the room and He's laughing.

"Ware is my mom?" I yell out.

The man then stops laughing. I squint my eyes and I cant see a face or anything just a dark shadow that looks like a man. The shadow moves towards me and I take a step back.

"Your all alone." I hear "all by yourself and no one loves you."
"That's not true." I say my heart racing fast. When I hear the voice its not coming from the shadow but its coming from all around me.
"Your mom left you all alone." It says. It sounds a bit familiar this time but it's almost like a mix of two voices with an echo.
"You will always be alone, your worthless and everyone would be better off without you."
"Shut up." I cry out throwing my hands over my ears.
I hear the laughing again as it echos around me and I let out a scream out.

I jolt straight up from my pillow panting covered in sweat trying to breath but I cant catch my breath. Shit im having a panic attack. I see Eddie shoot up next to me soon after.
"Babe are you ok?' He says reaching for me.
My chest feels tight and it's like I'm being stabbed there.
"Jade calm down, I think you had a nightmare." He grabs my hands in his.
I start gasping and im not getting enough air in.
"Breath sweetheart." Eddie says in a low and calm voice.
I fling myself into his arms and he wraps them around me holding me close in a tight embrace.
"Breathe for me baby, you can do it, nice and easy now." He whispers.
I feel his chest start to rise and fall nice and slow. I close my eyes and try to fallow his lead.
"In and out,... nice and slow , come on." He says.

Finally my breathing starts too slow down and I feel my heart beat start to slow as well and my chest begins to loosen up.
"There you go." Eddie says running his fingers through my hair.

All of a sudden I burst into tears. I feel so ashamed for freaking out over a stupid nightmare, but here is Eddie holding me, calming me down and being so sweet. Never once has he complained about helping me through a situation like this or a flashback. He doesn't have to do this, I have to be to much for him. One day he is going to say fuck this and leave me. I just know it.

EDDIE POV

Jade starts to sob in my arms. She just woke up from a nightmare and was having a panic attack. I helped her calm down but now shes is crying. I just want to take all her pain away, I hate seeing her like this.