Jaded affection / Eddie Munson

35. Time to let lose

TW DRINKING AND A PANIC ATTACK
Sorry this is going to be a bit of a long one. Enjoy. Light smut or really fluff lol

SATURDAY MORNING

I wake up on my side with Eddie's arm around my waist and his face nestled in the black of my neck. I cant help but smile to myself, he makes me so happy. I wonder if this feeling will last forever, how his touch makes me feel and how he always makes me feeling special. Will it always be this intense? I wonder to myself. I sigh, I hope so and I know what we have is something special and I don't want to let it go. I look at the clock and see it says 9:42 and I'd love to sleep longer but I want to shower and get to the store to get what we need tonight as well as clean up the house. I try to carefully move away from Eddie but he grabs my waist tighter and pulls me close to him.

"Eddie." I laugh turning to face him.
"Mmmm don't go I'm to comfortable ." He says with his eyes still closed.
"Im sorry I just wanna shower and eat something before we need to go to the store and clean up."
He opens his eyes up looking right at me. The sight of is chocolate brown eyes staring at me give be butterflies.
"I guess that ok." He says and kisses my forehead.

He lets me go and I head to my bathroom and start the shower. I take off the T-shirt I wore to bed and take my hair down running a quick brush through it before I step into the shower. I stand facing the shower head letting the warm water hit my face, god this has been one horrible week. Yes some good things have happened but all the bad shit is draining me. I feel like im on edge and at any moment something bad is going to happen, like something is going to ripe my happiness away. My life has already changed in the corse of a week. Can things please just calm down for once.

My minds drifts to my mom and my eyes start to sting, is she ever going to wake up? What if she doesn't? That thought makes my heart start to rase and my chest starts to hurt. I want my mom here so bad. Tears start to fall down my face and my knees give out causing me to fall to the floor. My chest starts to fell tighter and tighter and between my sops its getting hard to breath.

I vaguely can hear a door slam into the wall and the curtain is pulled back. I hear Eddie saying something but I can't quiet make it out as a ringing starts up in my ears.

EDDIE POV

I sit up in Jade's bed and stretch then hear a thud and crying coming from the bathroom. I jump out of bed rushing to the bathroom and throw open the door.

"Jade, are you ok?" I ask pulling the shower curtain to the side.

There I see Jade on her knees crying shaking and gaping for air. Shit shes having a panic attack. I shut the water off and get in next to her holding her hands in mine.

"Baby, you need to breath." I say to her.

I gently place a hand under her chin and move her face up to look at me and I see her green eyes glistening with tears

"Jade I'm here, were going to slow your breathing down ok."

She shakes her head. I pull her in close to me placing her head on my chest.

"Feel my chest rise and fall, can you copy that?"

I can feel her struggle to catch a breath and im not sure if she will be able to copy me so I wrap my arms around her waist.

"Breath with me, please Jade."

I take a deep breath in and then out, in and out. I can feel her shaking start to die down and shes not gasping as bad. I continue to breath, holding her close till she has finally calmed down and her breathing has returned to normal and she looks up at me.