Masama ang loob ko maghapon habang nasa opisina. Halos hindi ko naubos ang tanghalian ko at tulala ako kahit pa nga ang dami kong dapat gawin ngayon.
I am bothered, yes.
Because I know who Faith is in Callum’s life. She once made him happy and complete. She once a part of his life and who knows if she still is. He loved her truly, while me? It is all just a pragmatic marriage. A relationship full of convenience. He just felt lust towards me and nothing much. Just that. And it hurts that from the very beginning, I’m a loser.
They are all just using me.
Ilang araw pa ang lumipas at napapansin kong masyado nang nagiging abala si Callum. Hindi ko alam kung para saan pero hindi rin naman ako nagtatanong. He might be mad at me for being too nosy.
I’m his wife yet I feel like I don’t have the right to ask more questions. I feel like there’s a miles of gap between us.
“You look so pale, Hailey.” puna ni Dustin nang magkasabay kami sa tanghalian.
“Pagod lang,” mahinang sagot ko.
His eyes narrowed at me. “Pagod o sadyang . . . may bumabagabag sa ‘yo? I am your best friend, you can tell me your problems.” aniya na ikinatigil ko.
Napatitig ako sa kaniya nang matagal. Iniisip ko kung mapagkakatiwalaan ko ba siya sa bagay na ito. But I know Dustin more than I know Callum. He’s a true friend of mine. He won’t backstab me, he won’t betray me.
“Your twin, Justin, is he . . . a business partner of Callum?” marahang kong tanong.
Kumunot ang noo niya.
“Yeah, why? Aside from being friends, they’re also have a partnership in some businesses. Bakit mo natanong?”
“Is he busy too, right now?” I asked softly.
“Nope. He’s just chilling out in our parent’s house, why?”
“Callum is too busy with work or something. Medyo . . . hindi ako mapakali. I want to ask him kung bakit masyado siyang busy pero nahihiya ako magtanong. Pakiramdam ko . . . hindi dapat.” Nag-iwas ako ng tingin nang mabanaag ko ang kaunting galit at pag-aalala sa ekspresyon ni Dustin.
“Hindi ka ba niya inaalagaan nang maayos?” he asked, anger is seething in his voice.
Umiling ako, “the past days, we lack of communication because he’s too busy. Busy rin naman ako, pero hindi ko naman siya nakakalimutang kumustahin araw-araw. May . . . minsan pa na hindi siya nakakauwi. Nag-tetext o tumatawag siya pero pakiramdam ko, hindi sapat. Pakiramdam ko may gusto akong malaman pero ayaw kong magtanong dahil natatakot ako. Months of being married to him, I observe that he has an anger issue. And I don’t want to trigger his anger issues because he might . . . hurt me. Just verbally, but it hurts. Kaya takot akong magtanong. Takot akong mag-demand.”
Nag-umpisang manubig ang aking mga mata na agad ikinaalarma ni Dustin. Lumapit siya sa akin at niyakap ako. Hindi ko na napigilan ang pagyakap sa kaniya. Because at some point, he gave me comfort as my best friend. Pero lamang pa rin ang binibigay na init ni Callum sa akin.
“I miss him so much, Dustin. Pero ano’ng magagawa ko kung . . . busy talaga siya sa trabaho at negosyo. It’s his company over me.”
“Kung mahal ka niya, kahit malugi ang kompanya niya hindi ka niya iiwang ganito. Hindi ka niya hahayaang malungkot dahil sa ginagawa niya.” Dustin said, not minding his words.
‘Yon na nga, e. Hindi niya ako mahal. Kaya bakit siya magkakaroon ng pakialam sa nararamdaman ko, hindi ba?
“Hush, everything will be fine soon.” he said in a soothing voice.
BINABASA MO ANG
Romancing the Devil
Romance[PUBLISHED UNDER IMMAC PPH] 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆: 𝐑𝟏𝟖+ | 𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐄 This story is not suitable for young audiences below 18. Read at your own risk. For a woman who's desperate for attention and love of her parents, Hailey Avery de Guzman will do ever...
