Catch Me | Jin x Reader

Ch 105 | Crashing Down

⚠️ Warning ⚠️
Mature Content Ahead

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Author's POV:

Seokjin's eyes trail over your sleeping face, taking in all of his favorite things about you. He loves the shape of your nose, the roundness of your cheeks, the way your eyelids flutter when you're dreaming, and especially how your lips part slightly when you move a certain way.

He feels terrible for making you feel unwanted, because there's nothing farther from the truth than that. Everything about you is stunning to him, but he's been having a hard time accepting your love since starting his own therapy.

There were things he was avoiding, things he'd been pushing into his subconscious that are all coming up against his will now. Having to process the trauma of what his ex fiancé and older brother have done to him has been a lot more difficult than he thought it would be. It's made him feel insignificant and replaceable, and he's having trouble understanding how you could still love him after everything you've been through.

He's had to recount everything that's happened since the stabbing, which includes having to remember all the suffering you endured as well. Lately, when he looks into your eyes he sees that broken woman with a glass shard pressed up against her wrist. He sees that girl who didn't want to live.

Of course that's not who you are anymore, but the sadness and anger has been swallowing him whole. You never would've been suicidal if it weren't for his existence. Your love was actually starting to scare him a little bit. Ma-Ri and Sung-ho betrayed him when he didn't even do anything wrong. It doesn't make sense to his traumatized brain why you wouldn't do the same, after all the pain he's caused you.

A ray of sunlight peeks through the curtains, landing right into your eyes. He watches your brows pinch together, your body unconsciously rolling over to avoid the brightness. He's on his side facing you, and you roll right into him, your face resting on his shoulder and your hands against his bare chest.

This wakes you up just a little and his heart does a few backflips when your eyes start to flutter open. A small groan leaves your lips and you groggily look up at him, a lazy smile on your face when you see it's him.

Fuck, I'm so in love with her.

"Good morning baby," you mumble, scooting yourself closer to nuzzle your face between his neck and shoulder. Your breath fans over his skin, spreading goosebumps all across his chest, and your scent washes over him, sending a jolt to his lower half.

His lips part in awe because he really hasn't been able to get in the mood lately, but there's something about your morning voice and the way you're clinging to him that's stirring him up right now.

His eyes wander over your shoulder and down your side, a black sports bra the only thing covering your upper half. When you turned, your left leg came out of the covers and your shorts twisted up, leaving almost your whole backside exposed.

The places your skin meets his start to heat up, and he leans down to press his lips against your cheek, earning himself another sleepy groan from you. His body reacts again, his length hardening as he presses himself against you. His lips start to slowly trail across your jawline and down your neck, making you wake up a little more. The way your skin tastes against his lips sends a shiver down his spine, making him crave more of you.

"Bug," he murmurs, grazing your earlobe between his teeth. You let out a small moan, and he can tell you're really starting to wake up now.

Your hands slowly travel up from his chest to the back of his neck, pulling your body tighter against him. He leans more into you, rolling you onto your back but not allowing any distance between you two as his lips travel back down your neck and to your shoulder.