You were with someone who you tought would love you no matter what so you gave them everything maybe too much of yourself wich you need to lear to manage to not give someone all of yourself for them to just leave but yet you want to be one with them you want to connest with them in many ways,
the way you love is you text them all the time youre there for them you talk to them on your phone til your phone is on 1% you ask them how they are everyday to make sure that theyre okat but you wanna hold them take care of them but you also need that care you need that love aswell,
you dont know yourself your own being is confusing to yourself you get drunk with your best friend you feel euphoria while drunk you dance but at the end you end up crying your eyes out in your bed after ripping your clothes off to feel free but yet you cant ,no matter what you do noone has stayed and yet youve given everything you could youve written them love letters listened to them cry in your arms people scream at you on your own birthday and then help them speak because they were having a panic attack
you wanna be loved as much you love you are so unstable that you feel like noone would understand how to love you like theyd have to learn it take lessons because you are so difficult
you think theyd give up before succeeding like everyone has done in the past
