feeing comfort in the past because for youthere was nothing new at least for now it feels safe because now thngs are so safe you wish you could sometimes go back to the past and just sit there like lets say 2021 summer everything felt so safe so okay or 2022 summer you were with someone who you also tought would stay til the end but no as usual they eft so you find some weird kind of comfort in the past even tho you now knew things werent as perfect and good as they seemed.
you miss the small details of the past the small flashbacks make you feel like your drpping on drugs you feel like physically ripping the emotions out of your body as if that would be possible
but if it would be youd do it in a heartbeat because lets say being inlove with someone with bod it feels like your dripping on acid youre so addicted to them it makes you feel sick so the past is the sick comfort to you because its also filled with good memories even if its with now known as terrible people you somehow miss all of it you wanna go back and if youd be given that chance for even a day you go and lets say summer 2022 youd go and get drunk off your mind and laugh with you now shitty ass ex and your best friend but youd go back witht the same mindset as them because then you didnt have any idea how shitty one of them was you know this tought process is terrible but you cant help it but thats how we learn in life.
