imagine not trusting anyone for months after the person you cared about the most betrayed you ,you dont even know how many times you know the truth now and that the whole relationship was a lie nothing was real they saw you as a toy they could go to when they needed someone to cry to or make out with ir drink just someone to use for their benefit
After you gave them literally all of yourself you let them cry on your shoulder every fucking time no matter if you were the one who was struggling first or having a panic attack they always turned it around it fucking hurts so much you still talk to one of their exes who also dont deserve what they did to them but you are so hurt by what they did they put you trough literal hell and back and over again THEY knew what they were doing by lovebombing you they did it just to become your favorite person and then to destory your feelings annd emotions for a long time, they made you cry and scream on your bathroom flood while throwing up and yet had the fucking guts to tell you that they care and then block you after what they told you that YOU never take responsibilty yet they were the one who lied the whole relationship made you belive you could be loved and then destroyed you.n
its been half a year a little over even yet still small things remind you that you did all that for them yet they still lied to you and used you and are dating the person they kept touching on your birthday and then when your best friend called them out then told you to cut off because they brobally felt called out and everytime your best friend tried to give you advice they told you to block them because they were 'toxic' but well now you know your best friend was right yet your other friend knew some lies he told you but still didint tell you right away theres so many things wrong with this whole story.
they made you feel unlovable for months on end you couldnt even get up from your bed without crying for a whole month and then he kept stalking your instagram stories with new accs just to keep you attached because he knows that works everytime now they are dating the person they told you not to worry about and now you are on strong meds because of what happened,.
you like to think of if you hadnt answered that dm that day things would be so diffrent you wouldnt have to take strong meds
yet you miss the non toxic parts of it yet you shouldnt but shit happens and you just gotta accept it and try to move on.
