missing you from time to time,the endless emptiness you feel on a daily basis,you love romance you even miss it you crave romance kisses hugs, after them you feel betrayal hurt you miss the feeling they made you feel when you tought they were changing but without the rose colored glasses they never actually were ,they felt so real the feelings the way they cried in your arms but thte fact that can be also fake is sick.
The fact that its gonna be a new year soon in your brain it feels like the last year will forever be lost in your head because as everyone always says dont dwell on the past so leaving someone in the past hurts because imagine leaving someone in this year thats right now because the new year is just in a couple days but when the midnight hits its a new year its just a number change but in your body,chest it feels heavy because in 2022 they were in your life you felt alive with them but did you actually you gave them everything but did they give you the same back
now youre looking for the same feeling you felt with them in every person you meet but thats kinda pathetic of you because every person is diffrent but bpd is shitty and sometimes unexplainable beacuse you made me so comfused you told me that you loved me and youd wanna marry me one day but the next you told me you lost all those feelings in one day after hurting my soul you still had the audacity to tell me that you care after you clearly told me that you dont and then found out more shit about you and you left forver and blocked me.
but yet even that wasnt all of it.
im leaving you in 2022
