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_clairemarieking11 I lost the love of my life last night, I can't believe he's gone. I never loved someone as much as I loved him. He saved my life. Me and Zealand miss you so much, Ezra💔
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eileenrivers12 I'm so sorry, I miss him too
_clairemarieking11 Thank you for being there for us
The next day, July 8th
Claire's POV
We went home last night. I couldn't believe he was really gone. I wanted to die, I wanted to cry, I wanted Ezra back. I miss him, I wanted him to hold me again and tell me everything was ok. He saved my life, he didn't deserve what happened to him.
Eileen let me, Zealand, and Haven stay at her house until we were ready to go back home. She was truly amazing. She tried her hardest to make me feel better, but nothing worked, I was heartbroken, I was devestated, I wanted nothing but Ezra back in my arms.
It didn't help that Haven was his twin, all I could see in her dark blue eyes was Ezra. How did parents grieve their spouse when their child was identical to them? I loved that I had a piece of Ezra with Haven. I knew that Ezra was watching over her and I knew that he was with her, but I still missed him.
Zealand would continually ask where daddy was, so I had to tell him that daddy wasn't coming back and that hurt him. His heart was broken too. I couldn't help him and that killed me.
Eileen tried to distract him from the pain. She would play games with him and even took him and Neo to the park and have them play together, but all Zealand could think about was Ezra. It hurt me so much thinking about him growing up without his daddy.
Ezra was there for Zealand and Zealand loved him so much. I can't imagine Zealand growing up without Ezra. A part of him was gone, the funny, laughable Zealand was gone. He cried when I told him Ezra was gone. Why would Henry do something like that to my little boy. He killed a part of Zealand's life... And mine too. All I wanted was Zealand to be happy and now he's sad all the time and he's just toddler. I can't imagine how life will be in 5 years. Where will my baby be? Who will my baby be? I want Zealand to be happy, but the only way he'll be happy is if he had his daddy back.
