Only You

29 ~ Decisions

A L E X

My mind is in jumbles.

The one person I thought I could trust was against me this whole time.

She killed my brother.

They killed my brother.

I have to remind myself to stay as rational as possible because I don't know the whole story. I just knew I had to get away from them.

Far away.

I never thought anything like this would ever happen not to me, not to Ivy.

Then there's Cleo. Nate hurt and abused her. I don't know the full story.

I don't know the full story.

But how can I even look at Cleo without losing it. I can't.

Then there's ivy. She had my heart then broke it. What am I going to do? That's the big question.

It makes me sick just thinking about it. How can Cleo do this? Act like the heartbroken girlfriend in front of everyone. My mother can barely get out of bed, she is so depressed.

I'm not sure what to do.

It's crazy that I'm more upset about the betrayal of ivy rather than the death of my brother by Cleo.

I V Y

I feel sick. I can't believe what happened, Alex heard us. Cleo still can't stop crying in the corner but I can't find it in myself to comfort her. I'm to in shock about what happened.

I'm not going to play the victim. I did help Cleo, I did know the consequences now I'm dealing with them.

I put myself in this position, I can't expect Alex to forgive and forget.

I don't regret helping Cleo but I do regret staying with Alex while knowing I'm manipulating him.

Did I manipulate him?

It hurts knowing the only person I have ever been romantic with was hurt and betrayed by me. I betrayed him.

I want to cry. I want to scream. I want to do a lot of things but I have to be there for Cleo. No one else is here so all we have is each other.

At least I still have Cleo. She would never leave me.

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It was after midnight when I got Cleo to go to sleep. Now it was my turn to get some alone time and maybe some sleep.

I walk into my apartment and immediately stop dead in my tracks when I see a dark figure step into the room.

I step back but someone grabs my arm "calm down ivy. It's me." Alex says turning on the lights.

Alex?

I'm surprised it's not the cops but greatful to him for coming here.

"Oh sorry." I say awkwardly.

"Sorry for helping Cleo hide the dody or for being scared of me." He lets me go but keeps a great distance between us.

He doesn't make eye contact.

"Alex I- I don't know how to explain... I can't honestly but please hear me out. I love you that will never change."

"But I understand your anger. You should have called the cops but your hear so please just look at me." I say trying to explain in the best way I can.