Only You

33 ~ Too far

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I know sleeping together in a jail cell wasn't a part of my plan but it felt so good to be skin on skin with Alex again.

It felt so good to be lost in each other's bodies.

But like all good things it comes to an end. He looks so peaceful when sleeping, it almost hurts to wake him up.

"I have to go. I promise I will do everything to help you get out of here." I meant everything I have said to him.

"I know, I love you." He kisses me one last time before I'm out of the cell, sneaking out before the guard comes back.

I have talked to his lawyer and we initiated a plan but Alex shut it down. He doesn't want to taint his reputation or his soul.

I respect him for that and I'm proud to have a boyfriend who would do that but these are dire times.

Certain sacrifices have to be made either by him or by me.

My innocent's had already been ruined not just by Cleo or Nate. My soul was ruined a long time ago.

I wanted to do this for Alex.

Alex is the only one for me.

I think of this as the final test of loyalty in our relationship. He was willing to take the first step by trusting Cleo and I.

He had our backs and made a sacrifice, now it's my turn.

This isn't just about Cleo. Now it's about Alex and I, how far would we go for love?

I went far for Cleo out of love and friendship. I'm going to get Alex out of this and when I do we will go far out of love for each other.

Hopefully, I can earn his trust back.

After all of this shit, we will finally be able to be together.

I call Alex's lawyer, needing all of the details as to how I'm going to get ride of Nate's body and all of the evidence the police have.

He walks me through it and by the end of the call I know what had to be done.

It doesn't feel great knowing how to disintegrate a body but it all seemed pretty normal the way the lawyer explained.

Probably a warning as to why I should stay away from him.

Alex's lawyer no doubt is involved with some shady people and shit. Just another reason to stay on his good side.

It makes me question why Alex would choose him.

Maybe Alex is more similar to me then I thought.

I've never asked him about his life in new York but it must have been difficult to stay away from your family for so long.

At one point in his life he could have gotten into trouble.

No, stop this isn't what I should be thinking about right now.

I need to focus, leave all of those questions behind.

All that matters is being together.

Leave the past behind us and move forward.

Time to handle this once in for all. I'm afraid my soul has darkened more than ever. I may never get my light back.

I'm already too far gone.