Only You

35 ~ Goodbye, you

I V Y

I can't believe it. Alex let a gangster be his lawyer but I don't really know if he is one. All I know is that Santiago was a well known mafia name. I often saw articles about them.

I'm positive everyone knew who the Santiago family was. My question is why did Alex have him?

I guess that's another thing for another time. Right now, I wanna focus on surprising Alex when he gets back.

Maybe a picnic?

I'll make dinner. Just a quiet night between us. For once I feel calm and safe.

I have so many ideas. I just can't wait to see him and be with him.

There's still things we have to discuss, like when he's going back to New York and if we are going to try long distance.

I dream about us living here together because I have a job here and all of my memories of my mom are here but I know Alex won't like it. He had bad memories living in this town.

He wouldn't want a constant reminder of his brother around. I don't expect him to live here but it still would be nice.

I hear a knock at the door.

He's here!

That was faster then expected.

I open the door with a huge smile on my face. Alex is here but he doesn't look as happy as I was.

I still go in for a hug but his body remains stiff.

"Whats wrong?" I ask looking at his face. He still looked handsome but now there were dark spots under his eyes and his hair was messy.

"Ivy." He sighs.

"I can't be here."

"I know we love each other but I can't stay in this town for one more second." He says sounding torn up but I knew this was coming so it's not surprising but it still hurts.

It hurts knowing I did this to him. We did this to him. Cleo and I have made a mark in his life forever.

"I still want to be with you but not here."

"It's too hard."

I shake my head not letting him elaborate.

"I know, I understand but I can't just leave right away. I have a job and my memories are all here."

He sighs once again and mutters some curses.

Unexpectedly he slams his lips to mine, in urgency I try to keep up as we quickly move to the bedroom.

We need each other right now. We both know how this will end, we are just delaying the inevitable.

I wanna saviour him.

I wanna take time to acknowledge how he is my first.

He will probably be my last.

I can't loose him and I can't loose Cleo either. Once again I'm stuck in the middle.

I have to choose.

I want to have a future with alex but I'm not selfish enough to let Cleo be alone.

My thoughts are cut off by Alex, his hot breath on my thighs. He keeps pleasing me in so many ways, teasing and leaving hickeys everywhere.