friday
mom's house 😛
8:15 am
~ jules pov
last night i couldn't have sex with jayden after all that drama i was scared. i didn't wanna have her attached. she wanted to fuck me so badly i saw it in her face when we went to get food after we got high in her car. she was feeling on me and i was doing the same but i couldn't go farther than that. we made out and ended up in the backseats and i was on top of her lap she was in my pants and up my shirt. i'm talking feeling everything and i felt shit so much butterflies and sparks it felt like a movie🥰. i love jayden more than anything she knows that because that night when i was mad at her i came downstairs and we had sex like that and it was after she was talking to another girl she had a whole hickey on her neck and i still fucked her🙄. but i make a dumb mistake and she's mad for days. i didn't wanna look at her something was telling me to look at her phone but i didn't. i couldn't because i would cry and then get mad all over again. i wish we would just stop and be for only each other. but it's always like this when one of us cheats or hurts another a random gets brought into the picture ruining it all over again. we're too petty to be together i feel like sometimes. because we really do love each other but it's the petty competition of who does it last to make the other jealous. i think it's dumb. jayden does it purposely but i do it because she hurt me and i wanna get over her fast. i never can tho that's the crazy part😂. i think she's talking to someone else. but i don't care as long as i'm fucking her only we're good. i might go to her game tonight but i don't know. after last night i felt too much for her and the phone thing it's bothering me.
i'm in the kitchen eating breakfast. i have a studio session to be at this morning with eddie. eddie and i spoke after the drama yesterday and we're good. hayley's down here eating with me.
"do you know when mom's getting back?" i ask hayley
"umm yesterday she said today but then this morning she said tomorrow so maybe tomorrow" she says
"hmm" i say
hayley looks at me, "you wanna throw another party?" she asks
i saw her start to smile and i giggle, "we can't not this early in the year maybe next weekend" i say
she chuckles, "if you say so" she says
"how's chris? did he impregnate you yet?" i ask
hayley chokes and i laugh, "don't fucking say that mom put me on birth control all because she found out about him" she says
i smile, "i still hate him for that but i had to say it to see your reaction" i say
hayley rolls her eyes, "whatever" she says
i eat another bite of my muffin, "hey.. how about we throw a party next friday night.. not a rager but a kickback here mom will be out for the whole week she's going to japan." i say
hayley smirks, "ok so what's the party theme this time?" she asks
i smile as i thought, "beach theme" i say
her smile was enough to let me know she agreed.
The studio 🎶 - Riverside, California
9:30 am
~ jules pov
me and eddie wrote 'circles' were in the box about to record stay. our producer starts recording then starts the instrumental.
"I do the same thing I told you that I never would
I told you I'd change, even when I knew I never could
I know that I can't find nobody else as good as you
I need you to stay, need you to stay, hey (Oh)" eddie sang
