wednesday
NCHS 🦁
8:30 am
~ jules pov
not gonna even lie right now i spent all night crying. it actually helped me go to sleep peacefully. but i got a bad nightmare about joey putting his hands on me again and he transformed into the shadow man i never jumped out of my sleep so badly ever. i was hyperventilating and sweating and i started bawling and bella rushed up in my room to find me like that.
she was holding me until i stopped and i didn't wanna speak after she slept with me for the rest of the night. but i felt so bad knowing she didn't even go back to sleep because she was scared i was gonna need her again. this is why i never wanted to even tell jayde to be here for me. i hated knowing she wouldn't sleep until i was sleep.
now i'm in my car with hayley. my producers are giving me the next 4 days off before tour next week. i have to start going back sunday for practice sunday monday and then i'm off. in the meantime i'll be at school graduating and my baby shower and nate will be doing whatever he does. he's most likely with his daughter right now.
he really loves his daughter i think it's the cutest thing ever. makes me excited for when my baby is born. my baby will become my whole world. i've been thinking about names.
hayley had breakfast i kinda ate something but only so hayley didn't question me. i got her a starbucks drink and i just have water. it's partly cloudy out today. it's beginning to feel like summer now. it's the end of may.
"so you don't have to go to the studio?" hayley asks
"not until sunday... are you going on tour with me or are you spending it with mom in san diego?" i ask
hayley thought, "i don't wanna be away from you but... mom will be alone she'll be working" she says
"you should stay with mom you never see her as much as i did" i say
she looks me in the eyes, "yeah but i literally don't wanna be away from you jules" she says
i smile a little, "you love me so much" i say softly
she rolls her eyes, "no i don't" she says
i giggle and she smiles a little. my phone dings so i pick it up and it's another unknown number. joey. i already know so i ignore it.
"who's been texting you like that?" she asks
i raise my eyebrows and lick my lips, "i don't know... i think i need to get my cap and gown today we have practice today for graduation friday.. do you know if mom is coming?" i ask
hayley glances at my phone funny, "i mean she's obviously gonna come.. dad might go too i'm sure and his little family" she says
i bite my lips and look away from her, "you've been being suspicious all morning.." she says
i scrunch my eyebrows and look at her again, "how?" i ask
she squints at me, "you've been ignoring messages from an unknown number and lying about it" she says
i hesitate, "is it joey? is that why?" she asks
i sigh deeply, "don't tell anybody please. don't let jayden hear about that." i say
she's getting angry i see it in her body language, "that fucking bitch i'm gonna beat his ass when i see him i promise you tell him it's on sight when i see him on my momma he's dead." she says with an attitude
i let her talk. she takes my phone and i try to get it back as nicely as possible, "hayley stop" i say
she's unlocking my phone and blocking me from getting it. all i heard was dialing and i know she's calling the number. i sit back in my seat and sigh deeply. she's gonna fucking cuss him out i know it. he answers, "who the fuck is this?" a girl says
