thursday
NCHS 🦁
1st period - volleyball 🏐
~ jayden pov
so my family saw my live and this morning i was woken up by my dad and mom. my mom was comforting me but left the rest for my dad. my dad talked to me and he was so sad for me. he held me and made me cry again. he told me i should stay home to rest. he said he would stay home with me and get me whatever i want. they know i never dated people for this reason. they didn't want my heart broken. i didn't want it broken either. but this what happens when you fall for a charm and give your heart to them. i told my dad i was fine and i would call him if i needed him to get me. i got ready and i was zoning out in the shower and i was late for school today. my mom drove me here. bronny's taking me home today since i didn't drive. i almost drowned in the shower because i was zoning out and forgetting to breathe. jules was blowing me up but i blocked her. i couldn't hear or see her name any longer. i got ready and put on pjs today. i look so exhausted and pale my parents told me and they were so concerned. darian is mad and so is bronny. they don't want jules here ever again. she's definitely gonna be here today. i'm so exhausted and sad. i can't stay in the moment for longer than 5 minutes. my mom bought me breakfast from starbucks but i didn't eat it i picked at it. i'm sick to my stomach. my mom didn't tell me this but i know she's doing it. she's gonna have the school on sped dial if i call her or dad. they want me home but i fought to go to school anyways. i just can't stay there after last night and seeing all the stuff jules gave to me🥺. i have pictures of her in my room of us and i have her in my heart locket my dad got me. i'm wearing it and it's hurting me knowing that she's in my necklace. i wanna rip it out. i'm so angry at her.
i'm in the locker room on the bench against the lockers zoning out once again. i'm getting flashbacks of jules and i. the sex flashbacks. the way she would fuck me good and tell me she loves me so much😔. my heart ached at the thought of it. i don't wanna see her ever again.
my coach came out the office over to me. my teammates tried to comfort me with hugs and talking to me but i couldn't hold a conversation i'm out of it. i know they're concerned and upset with jules. coach crotches down to my level and we make eye contact, "i heard about what happened from the team. your mother just called me she told me to let you sit out today at practice if you need to. you have a free day today so feel free to join us or relax here that's completely fine. i am so sorry." coach says to me
i need a distraction, "i don't wanna sit out i need a distraction today" i say softly
"but are you mentally ok for that? physically too? you look exhausted you don't look very well" coach says gently
"i know i don't i don't feel ok but i'm not gonna stop myself from living because of a heartbreak" i say softly
coach looks concerned now. she rubs my shoulder, "ok you can join us get into uniform but if you give me any concern during practice you're out for today i don't need anything bad happening to you again after that concussion." coach says
i nod and she got up and left me to change. devenity came up to me, "i told you she was no good" dev says
she leaves the locker room and the team follows after her. i should've listened to them😔.
NCHS 🦁
4th period - lunch 🥪
~ jayden pov
during basketball practice i sat out at the beginning because i was so overwhelmed from volleyball practice and my classes before this one. during volleyball i was too distracted to play so i sat out and watched them practice and i got angry everytime they would miss a spike opportunity. i'm spiker so it upset me when she out sophia in my spot. i almost cussed her out but i stayed quiet. then psychologically was next i slept the whole class even zariah was sleep when i woke up the last 10 minutes of class. i woke up and bella and katie were packing up to leave i was shocked they didn't speak to us all class. bella definitely knows about the drama with jules and she's gotta be embarrassed by jules's behavior. but again she would've been over here with zariah even if she was sleeping so i think something happened with them. then my next class i had pre calculus with kianna and kenzie i stayed awake for a little bit went back to sleep and the teacher woke me up which angered me. i got my shit and walked out the classroom. i went to my councilor to talk to her and she let me sleep there since she knew how stressed i was. so once i woke up 4th was starting so i went to the gym to ask my basketball coach if she wanted me to play or not before i changed and she told me yes so i got changed in the locker room came back and was benched as soon as i got in. she told me they just told her what happened with me and she wanted me to sit for a little. so i followed her rules. she let me join 20 minutes later. kai had me pumped and ready not gonna lie she really made me shine today and smile for the first time. so when i got in the game i was having fun. everyone was playing good games and our game plays were good. we don't start basketball season until the end of december. so we're just making game plays and working out. volleyball is having our first game tomorrow. it's against san diego high school unfortunately.
