saturday
📍jules's apartment 😛
10:35 am
~ jules pov
oh my gosh last night was too much. after jayde stormed out i kinda just let her leave i didn't wanna stop her cus i know what happened last time i stopped her during a fight between us at a party and we literally yelled at each other in front of everyone and people were calling us toxic.
cus we put our hands on each other and i just didn't want jayden hitting or touching me and pissing me off so i let her go. i sat in the room with the door open thinking about it. and breaking down the fact we just had sex like the BEST sex ever and now she's mad at me. in the moment i knew was right but my heart wanted something else.
my heart wanted her. my heart wanted me to go up to her and tell her to be my girlfriend again. but my common sense was like no she'll only hurt you again. i was fighting my thoughts for about 20 minutes just hesitant to get up and find her but staying out is better. then i saw joey come in the room again with drinks. i didn't know what it was not that i didn't trust him i just didn't know what it was.
he hands it to me trying to sit and talk with me. but i didn't take it i told him no. he was like it's cool more for me. i kept thinking and looking out the door infront of us. i just felt guilt and i felt emotional all of a sudden and joey asks me what's wrong. i told him i didn't wanna talk about it. and then he asked if i wanted to get out of there. i looked at him and told him no and got up and left. i got hayley and we left the party.
i had only made it to my car when i broke down crying. hayley was asking me what's wrong but i didn't answer. so after i finished bawling for 10 minutes i start driving still sniffling. we got to my apartment and i went straight to bed. i just kept feeling an energy pull between jayde and i. it was so bad i could feel everything she was feeling.
i had to sleep it off there was nothing left for me to do. now this morning i just got up i just showered and i'm in pjs still and my wet hair is down. my mom bella her mom jelani and chris are here. everybody's ready for the baby shower at 1. i slept in. and jayden texted me this morning. i didn't respond yet.
i sit at the counter and i have a nice breakfast made. i just wanna know my baby's gender and have a great day that's all. im almost 2 months pregnant. my mom made everybody breakfast and saved me a plate since i was sleep.
i glance up from my plate at my mom, "thanks mom" i say
"you're welcome sweetie" mom says
she kisses my forehead. i start eating. im listening to them gossip and im just smiling at the funny things they say and stuff. i finish my food and pull out my phone. i look at the text with jayde.
Jayde
jayde | 10:00 am
hey i just wanted to say last night shouldn't have happened let's ignore everything that happened and be cool for today for our baby pls
jules | 10:40 am
yea i agree im sorry though jayde
jayde | 10:42 am
no we're good slide to kiannas that's where we're meeting at 11:30
jules | 10:43 am
okay
i turn my phone off. im glad we're on the same page for our baby. i get back on my phone and i check my emails and i got a lot of sponsors in my mail. i need to check tomorrow just not today it's a special day. i actually invited nate lily and a lot of my other friends too. joey i was would've invited but my family is going to be there and he will literally die if chino sees him.
