friday
san diego, california 🌅
📍mom's house😝
9:30 am
~ jules pov
so last night well technically i left around 6. i made sure i left hayley at dad's house i told her to stay there for the night and i'd come back to get her today and i am i promised her that. she kept begging me to let her come to san diego with me and mom but i couldn't do that knowing she's got tests to do before the school year is over.
plus i just couldn't let her because mom wasn't gonna approve she barely was gonna let me come but i told her i wanted to talk with her so she was fine with it. hayley nearly had a breakdown when i was at dads house and she didn't wanna get out the car because she's got separation anxiety when it comes to leaving me.
my little hayley. she hates to admit how much loves me but everybody knows she loves me so much it's a lot more than you would think. she loves being under me most of the time after school if i was home she'd come to my room and just chill with me if it was just us and when i wouldn't be home she'd be waiting for me in the living room and she'd be excited to talk to me.
she loves me so much it makes me emotional. i actually cried watching her start tearing up when i told she had to get out. she told me she didn't want me to go to san diego because of how dangerous it was and she wanted to make sure i was safe. which is why she hates us being apart. after me getting shot.
i was damn near bawling over her crying and then all my built up emotions from earlier from jayden cheating on me added on to that and i was just a mess and she was crying so hard too. i held her so tightly until she stopped. i had to stop crying so she could but the pain in my throat was horrible.
when she calmed down i hugged her again and blew her a kiss. she pretended to throw it away and we laughed at that. still tears in our eyes and she got out the car after holding my hand for a few more seconds. i just watched her go inside and she waved bye to me. my heart was shattering but i put a fake smile and waved back and said 'bye my sweet hayley' and she put her hands across her heart in aww. she wanted to cry again while i was driving off.
i hate being apart from her. it sucks. it was terrible when we were split for that time period when i was here and she was in la for those 3 months. i will always protect her forever and ever. i go so hard for her. i'd risk my life.
i got to my moms at 8 something and we went out to dinner and it was just us i was forced to have security come with me to dinner and i was fine with it i felt safer. me and my mom talked and i was trying not to say anything about jayden but she already had seen on social media about it.
so after dinner we just came back home and were watching a movie together in the living room and i was just reading back all jaydens texts and then i saw the live and i just was so blown out of proportion. devenity was saying that jayden initiated everytime she cheated with her and i believe her because jaydens not saying anything.
then she had the audacity to sit and tell the whole world that she loves me so much and she would do anything to be with me and all that shit and now social media knows i'm pregnant. i'm so tired of her shit. my heart hurts knowing how badly i loved her. what did i do to deserve this? nobody's ever been straight loyal to me ever. it's soul crushing.
so right now i just showered and i'm ready for my studio session today i've got business to do. we're setting our tour schedules tonight and tour starts june. this is a lot. all i keep thinking about is jayden. i miss her so badly but i deserve so much better and i know it.
i'm downstairs with my mom, "so are you wanting to stay the weekend in la with us?" i ask mom
"yeah i'm all packed" mom says
