sunday
📍moms house
10:20 am
~ jules pov
so last night jayden came over at like 11 and she talked to my family and they thought she was coming to have sex with me my mom kept teasing me and hayley was laughing and shaking her head. we ate together and we went to my room. where we were alone but jayden kept her distance. i would try and hug her but she was rejecting me. i didn't try and kiss her.. at first. i just wanted a hug. she gave me one hug but i got a little comfortable and got on her lap to be closer to her and she pushed me off her. she wasn't playing about me having self control. i don't want my heart broken again and she doesn't wanna break it. so we did our night routine and she rejected me so much at that point i didn't even talk to her. she begged me to talk to her and look at her and when i did look at her we locked eyes and i felt the tension rise and i knew she wanted to kiss me so i went in but she rejected me. that's when i gave up. i just went to my bed and we watched a movie. i treated her like a friend for the rest of the night. a friend i wanted to fucking have sex with. i woke up this morning and she wasn't in my bed anymore it was like 9 and she was gone and i checked downstairs she was down there talking to my mom. laughing and shit. i've been up in my room song writing my new song. 'nobody gets me' that song i've been writing for a week now. during all this breakup stuff. joeys been texting me asking me how i'm feeling and stuff. i threw up this morning when i first woke up. i showered and brushed cleaned my face all that after and i'm just sitting in my pjs.
i heard my door open and i look and see hayley, "morning" hayley says
"good morning" i say
"how are you feeling?" hayley asks
i shrug, "like shit i threw up i have a headache" i say
"need me to get you anything?" hayley asks
i shake my head, "i got it hayley thanks tho" i say
she nods, "what did you and jayden do last night? it was quiet in the room" she says
i raise my eyebrows, "watch a movie and i kept getting rejected the whole night" i say
she giggles, "there's no way you pushed yourself onto her" she says
"i did because i miss her and i needed her but i just stopped trying after awhile" i say
"good i think she's rejecting you so that you don't get hurt again which is very mature of her" she says
"ok but i wanna have sex so she needs to stop" i say
"you need to realize she's doing this for you and your heart.. breakfast is downstairs if you wanna eat i think you should" hayley says before leaving me alone.
a second later jayden came in the room drinking water, "you just get up and leave my room without saying anything now?" i ask
jayden sits at the foot of my bed and smiles a bit, "i smelt food and i went to chat it up with dukes" she says
i roll my eyes and go back to song writing, "jules.. i know you're upset from last night but i can not have sex with you after the breakup i'd be hurting you" jayden says as she came over to me.
"i know that... but my hearts been craving you for days and you finally are here and reject me that shit hurt" i say
"and i'm sorry but i can not lead you on i don't want a relationship right now if we have sex you're gonna want that" she says
she's right🙄, "ok.. i understand." i say
"good. we're just friends." she says
friends... i look at her, "can we just hookup one last time?" i ask softly
