It's been a week since Matt saw you and he wish he could say that time was what he needed for the entanglement on his mind. Besides a doctors appointment and a meet up with Nicole, he had been sitting in his Mom's house, alone and confused.
He thought the familiar feeling with Nicole would make her be the one he chose, but the guilt he had with you, made him wonder. He knew that his lost memories would help, but he didn't know how to open that locked box. He didn't even know if he had a key.
Matt can't help but pity himself. At least you knew how you felt. At least Nicole knew what she wants. The change on everyone's lives were all on him and he never felt his life be more turbulent.
Does he actually want to be with Nicole or is the comfort too difficult to give up? She was sociable and determined, two qualities he admired. But, she hadn't made a huge effort in repairing anything. She can become distant, always working. Then again, he could be thinking too much into it because of how stressed he was.
Did he want to be with you or did he feel guilty for going slow with someone who was so kind to him? The effort was amazing that you put into helping him, not just physically, but mentally too. You were supportive. What would happen if you both started all over again and it wasn't as good as it was made out to be?
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"How come you're staying with your Mom?" Madi asked, staring at him with a blank expression as they ate lunch.
"Jusr gonna dive right into it, huh?"
She laughed and wiped her hands, looking at Matt. "What else would we talk about?"
"Anything else" he sighed, looking down at his own food. "I don't know what to say"
"Okay" She said, softening her tone and expression. "We don't have to talk about it"
"I just..I feel like I'm fucked either way"
"What do you mean?"
Matt's body tensed when he realised Madi might not know the details of his situation. The situation he put himself and you in.
"Uh..shit.." He scratched the back of his neck. "I've been having a hard time..choosing.."
"Choosing what?"
"Choosing who I want to be with" Matt admitted, bowing his head in shame as his chest tightened.
Madi didn't say anything, she just stared at him.
"Like between Y/N and who else..?"
Matt kept this from everyone, but Madi is someone he felt he could confide in about this.
"And Nicole"
Madi sat up straight in her chair and Matt was concerned this could strain their friendship.
"You can't be serious" She shook her head. "Why is she even an option?"
Matt sighed and cleared his throat, wishing he could pass out or someone would come take him from the situation.
"I know her, you know?" He shrugged, looking up and hoping she understood, but she had a stern look on her face.
"No! I don't know" Madi scolded, causing Matt's body to tense up. He wasn't expecting her to be this upset. "It's stupid"
"Ease up, Madi. I remember being with her and loving her. It's hard to give up what I remember being in"
Madi scoffed and Matt frowned. He understood how close Madi was to you, but Madi knew Nicole as well and he wasn't asking her to choose between the two girls.
